Alicia, I'm sorry doesn't even seem to be enough to say, so I'll say something else first.
A joke.
Why does Snoop Dog Carry an Umbrella with him wherever he goes?
Fo Drizzle!
Sorry, that was a bad one, but bad jokes are usually the funniest and get the most varying reactions. I know how it feels to loose someone who's been around in your entire life. I was hoping my joke would bring even the thought of a smile to someones face. Sorry if it didn't work, a smile from me if it did.
Believe it or not, smiling does help, even if you don't mean it. I know this is going to sound like a really cheesy, 3rd Grade teacher thing to say, but smiles are contagious. If you smile, somone else who sees you smiling will be happy to know that you are smiling, and therefore will smile as well, and when somone else sees them smiling . . .
. . . You get it, right?
Anyway, I'm so sorry about your dad. He's watching you right now, seeing your family upset, and he's wondering why you are. He's happy, why aren't you?
Everytime you see the sun, that's him smiling to you.
Every time you see the moon, thats him kissing you goodnight.
I know this sounds unrelated, but if I were you, I'd buy some windchimes. They have a really calming effect, and if you put them somewhere outside low enough for you or anyone in your family to touch them, when you sound them and are saying hi, the wind will pick up. I can't explain it, but for everyone I know, it works. Try it.
Anyway, I'm praying for all of you.
Thanks.
Yensidtlaw1969.