lunalovegoddess
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Uponastar said:I think I'd rather deal with the physical abuse too.
At least with that you can say "Here! Look! This is what he/she did to me!" But the other stuff is usually so deeply hurtful you tend to keep it buried. It's easier than facing it. You can't understand the idea that you aren't somehow responsible for the abuse. The stuff I took from other kids and even teachers (nuns!) in regard to my speech problem, I never told anyone. I think I felt like I deserved it for being different. It was a daily struggle. But I think I'm a kinder person for it. At least I try to be.
just thinking about the nun I had for a teacher still gets me steamed
She belonged to the generation which believed in corporeal punishment. The other teachers were laypeople, and generally I got on well with them. However, with the exception of two teachers, I did not think I could talk to them about my problems.
What I despised about those girls was that they could be saccharine sweet to my face, but then degrade me and take advantage of my attempts at friendship to humiliate me.