So here I sit this morning and ponder about my girl, I think about what she has become. After 20 plus years I look at her and wonder what the h*ll happened. She was so beautiful. There was such a pleasantness about her. You could even call it regal. She had class, taste. We were in awe of her.
Now all of her essence is being stripped away piece by piece. Replacing her jewels are cheap costume jewelry. Sure other people thinks she is still beautiful, but they don't know her like I do. She has changed. To see her now I must make an appointment. To have dinner with her I must call six months in advance. To dance with her I have to call sixty days in advance. No longer can I just walk up and knock on the door and go on a date. She has lost her spontaneity.
I would spend lots of money to wine and dine her, sometimes those nights would last to the wee hours of the morning....she appreciated it. She would reciprocate by giving me memories that would last a life time. Now I have to wear a rubber band and wait in line to have just a few minutes with her. Long gone are the days when we could just stroll along and enjoy each others company.
Our relationship has changed forever. I don't love her like I used to, I never will. I don't think she loves me either. Like a first love I will always remember her, but I think for me its time to move on. I have one more date with her. Its going to be tough, I know that it will be sometime before I see her again. It will be hard.....but she just isn't the same anymore.