working out for Disney

[HouCuseChickie]

Sam is probably not a huge fan of that pic. Also, I had put out a hoodie that morning but forgot it. So, I'm in a tank top wearing a beach towel for the first half of this visit. Brrrrrr!

 

[HouCuseChickie]

We bought some souvenirs at the Alpine Visitor Center...including a lovely moose shirt to keep me warm. It was a surprisingly thick long sleeve tee. It was better quality than some of the equally priced sweatshirts.



As you can see, we also suffered some damage while we were away. Kendall informed us a part of a limb hit the family room. It rained several times and seemed OK, but in the few short days we were home, it began pouring inside the house. We got a roofer out to tarp but this prompted David to skip Atlanta and stay home to make sure all was OK while waiting on them to fix it. While this was happening, another leak showed up both in the family room and an upstairs bedroom. At first we thought it was roof related, but it turns out the A/C lines were leaking in a similar area and causing damage on both floors. It's all fixed now, but even more reason for David to stay home.

Next up...I drive solo to Georgia with Sam!

 

[Songbird76]

Certainly trying! I'm still recovering from my birthday. I weighed myself a few days later just for an honest dose of reality. All of the fitness gurus say that one day or even a few bad ones won't totally wreck you but I was up 5lbs and I could see it. I know that's in the range of standard fluctuations, but I haven't been fluctuating that much over these months. So, that one day definitely threw me off more than anything while I was on the road. I weighed in again today just to see if being back on my normal routine was working and now I'm only 2 lbs above my most recent low last Saturday morning. That's a more normal fluctuation.

As for him...who the heck knows. I thought it might be insecurity at first but I really don't think that's it. He was very popular at one point too. In fact, we're pretty certain he was one of the ultra popular bully athlete guys in school. He claims nobody was ever bullied in his school but that's usually the hallmark of being the one doing the bullying. At the very least, he is painfully blunt to the point that he's driven off pretty much all of our friends over the years. I even had friends leave me or refuse to do stuff with both of us because they couldn't handle hanging out with his personality. I've had to keep an eye out with softball because he's already created a few tense relationships with his personality and lack of awareness about what is and isn't offensive/appropriate. He's always had the "if you're offended, that's a YOU problem" mentality. As for insecurities...When we were dating, and even in the early stages of our marriage, he never acted threatened by other men approaching me. He even welcomed it if those men wanted to buy me drinks and save us some money. In fact, the only thing that has ever bugged him over the years is if I wear something more revealing... and even that's off because it's really silly little things. Like a pair of leggings that may be a tad see through when I bend/squat or a top with tiny sheer panels in areas around my waist and shoulders. In other words, more obviously provocative clothing was never a problem. Short skirts, cleavage, tight fitting, bare midriff, you name it... fine. Seriously, men used to sit down with me when we were out at bars, trying to steal me, while he was 10 feet away playing games and he couldn't care less. Even when we were out in CA last month I had another example occur. We were out at dinner one night but at three separate tables. I was a few tables away with another mom and he didn't bat an eyelash even though this man from another group spent the entire meal popping by to chat with me...eventually calling me beautiful, among other things. He just keeps harping on how I'm no longer fun. It's as if he'd rather have me physically and mentally miserable if it means having a drinking and eating buddy in me. Personally, I'm hitting a point where my patience is running insanely thin with all of it. He's been so indifferent about me that he's failing to pay attention to all sorts of things. Like the day in CA where he took my stuff out of the wagon to make room for his things and just left my stuff behind on the pavement, not caring or really paying attention because it wasn't his stuff. Thankfully, it wasn't taken because I had my wallet, car keys, jewelry, etc. in it. It was sitting there while we were on the nearby beach for at least an hour before I discovered what he'd done. It's a vagrant infested garage and it was just sitting there in the open behind the truck where he left it. Add in that his not caring about what anyone thinks has led to him turning into a complete slob and I'm just at a breaking point being hit with his dissatisfaction with my habits for betterment. I made an interesting observation with some of it the other week. There's a man in our softball world that I think has developed an interest in me over the last few months. He is a big guy, yet I see some real appeal there. That's critical because clearly it's not some extra weight that's making me sour at home. Some may just be that new interest is flattering, but I think it's because he's not going around in stained, dirty (food crusted on the front), ripped, etc. clothing. Sorry...long rant and maybe TMI but I'm just feeling like I'm approaching a breaking point and his preference for me being in line with his slovenly approach to everything vs. happy and healthy has me doing a lot of soul searching these days.

I'm so sorry! It does kind of sound like he just wants a buddy to be snacking with, or maybe even just to validate that that's ok. Like, you trying to make healthier choices makes him feel guilty that he's not.

And people do change over time. My husband is so different from when we met. And it was a gradual change over time. And I know I've changed too, which I think plays a part. I was always a people pleaser and would always give in just to keep the peace. He encouraged me not to do that, but I think now that I don't do that as often, he realizes how much I let him have his way before, which he liked. I think he misses that, because who doesn't like to get their way all the time? So may you and your husband have both changed and the changes are not really beneficial to your relationship.

 

[HouCuseChickie]

I'm so sorry! It does kind of sound like he just wants a buddy to be snacking with, or maybe even just to validate that that's ok. Like, you trying to make healthier choices makes him feel guilty that he's not.

And people do change over time. My husband is so different from when we met. And it was a gradual change over time. And I know I've changed too, which I think plays a part. I was always a people pleaser and would always give in just to keep the peace. He encouraged me not to do that, but I think now that I don't do that as often, he realizes how much I let him have his way before, which he liked. I think he misses that, because who doesn't like to get their way all the time? So may you and your husband have both changed and the changes are not really beneficial to your relationship.

We've always been very different but I do feel like we're changing as we age, making those differences more profound and pronounced. They say that perimenopause and menopause also trigger some hormonal changes that can make women less likely to tolerate bad behavior from the men in their lives...or something like that. I guess, in the childbearing years, we're chemically wired to be forgiving for procreation purposes but those chemicals wane as we move on to the later stages of life. I know some people will say HRT could help but do I want it to? I mean, I really don't care for a lot of how he is behaving and I think remaining focused on betterment of self is a positive endeavor. I'm not making any rash or hasty decisions but I will be doing what is best for my physical and mental health while trying to hold it together with all of the other adulting needed in life.

 

[HouCuseChickie]

Good morning

The scale was becoming obsessive last week, so I'm contemplating skipping it until a week after I get back from my weekend in Montana. Then again, I may brave it this Thursday morning, after my weighted vest walk. I made special cookies and all kinds of frosting fillings this past weekend for a big softball potluck and while I wasn't completely out of hand with them (nothing like my bday indulgence) I had a bit more than I should. So, I want a little time to adjust. I don't think I feel or look any larger. In fact, some of my recently purchased size small shorts are already showing signs that I could dip down to an XS. I'm just trying to maintain that balance and not get too mentally crazy over it.

Speaking of the weighted vest...I must admit that my first week was a bit rough. My speed and distance were fine but I started having some back pain to the point of needing ibuprofen and a heating pad. I gave it a break over the weekend but started back with it yesterday. So far...two days back at it and no pain. It does make me sweat more from having to work harder but it doesn't make wearing the vest any more uncomfortable than it would be in cold conditions. In fact, I'm getting speedy enough in it that I'm starting to like it. The only tough thing is running. Not that I was doing a ton of running, but it's not well suited for running. I sometimes have to play frogger with traffic at the end of my morning walk and a heavy vest is not ideal for trying to scoot across the street in school day morning traffic.

I also made a cheap addition to my gym gear. I noticed some calluses starting to form on my hands from arm/back days. I "invested" in the cheapest pair I could find on Amazon. I think they were a little over $7 after tax. So, minimal out of pocket to save my hands.

I'm really hoping the time away this weekend will help me clear my head on all of the other drama at home and stress at work. I was originally thinking we'd drive up to Glacier after Sam's camp, but the camp ends at 3:30pm, kids usually hang around longer to talk to the coaches and take pics for social media, plus she'll need to change. We'll see. I may aim for the eastern entrance instead and skip doing a full drive through the park. That's where I wanted to go anyway since I wanted to be by the lake on that side around sunset.

 

[HouCuseChickie]

Good morning!

I decided to do a weigh in before heading to MT tomorrow. I figured it would be better to have an honest picture of where I'm at right now vs. wallowing in the birthday setbacks...which could lead me to some bad choices. I know much of that was bloating from sodium but a friend also noted prolonged inflammation likely being an issue due to my standard digestive issues. She's probably right, because my tummy has not been the greatest since my bday and I've had far fewer issues since my dietary changes. I am happy to report that as of this morning, I am below the weight I was on my bday morning. It's just 1 pound, but still...it's a pound lost and back to going in the right direction.

Things are still going well with the weighted vest. I got in around 4.15 miles before work this morning and did some speedy uphill power walking in the process. I have to get ready for travel and I probably should build in a home workout day to focus on some things I don't normally hit at the gym. So, I think I'm going to walk some more (probably without the vest) and bike after work and then do a "home routine." My home routine still does light arms, but it gets in a lot more shoulders, squats, planks, abs, pelvic lifts, etc. It's been a couple of weeks since I've had a home workout day and it might be best before travel. I am hoping to hit the gym in Missoula in addition to walking and hiking, so I SHOULD be good during this trip. Now fingers crossed that things go smoothly with flights.