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[HouCuseChickie]

I don't know if this is helpful, but could you sit down on Sunday and map out your week? Like, maybe doing strength training splits after your walk. You can decide which body parts you want to work which day and choose a few exercises for that workout to work those part, so you can keep it short after your walk. I have a workout DVD called "4 Day Split" and the first half hour of the workout is a type of cardio, then second half hour is strength training different parts. I was thinking something like that. I can't remember how it was split, but you could do what's good for your needs.

I have those types thoughts, but mine are more like regrets. Opportunities I passed up because I thought I would fail or do badly or schools I didn't apply to because I thought I'd get rejected. Or feeling guilty about maintaining boundaries and getting into situations where I felt uncomfortable because I didn't want the person to get angry with me, that sort of thing.

I've thought about it and it's not a bad idea. I have things that I do every day and I push myself to change up what is not an everyday thing so I keep embracing variety. I just wonder if I'll be disciplined enough to do it. I tend to have a lot of "oh, but I feel like doing this" moments which causes me to stack more.

There are definitely regrets in mine as well. Some do involve the academic angles. I also totally understand the regrets with letting opportunities pass over fears of some sort of failure/rejection. I guess I'm just coming to terms that a lot of my college time was built on shallow and superficial friendships/relationships. Some of it was geographic. I was the only one living over a thousand miles away, but everything just faded when I left...which was huge because I had a robust social life with all of these people. It's not so much of a regret with that. It's accepting that I had a lot of fun but it was a product of a highly toxic environment, while also owning up to me being part of that toxicity. While I'd previously decided that it was shallow, the toxic revelation was new. I think somewhere in my mind, I always thought I might bump into some of these "loose ends" over the course of life. Like the connections were so strong and the memories so vivid that it felt inevitable. Now that we're at 3 decades, it's sort of slapped me in the face that it's just not going to happen and that lack of proper closure is more reflective of that overall toxicity. It's been mentally stressful because it's as if I'm breaking up with a perception of such a big (albeit short) part of my past. I got really stuck on thoughts about this one guy at the end. It caused me a lot of stress over the last week or two since I couldn't figure out why the sudden memories and reliving of the hurt. Yes, part of it is because he handled it like a frightened toddler, but normally something like him would have been a tiny blip on my radar. I came to realize that his impact was more profound because he was essentially a bookend on that chapter of life. I won't ramble on anymore, but it's made me see a need for some new area of personal fulfillment.

 

[HouCuseChickie]

Hello-

Checking in with strength training today (upper body and HIIT) and yesterday (full body) and two very bracing walks today and yesterday. It was freezing outside. I had to put on my "Chicago winter coat" and my fleece-lined leggings.

I saw daffodils in my yard starting to poke through the dirt. That made me feel a bit happy when I saw them. Everything feels so off right now to me and I am trying to look for positive things. At least spring is coming.

I scheduled an MMR booster at CVS this weekend. I am wondering if I should cancel because I just read two doses are 97% effective and last a lifetime. I just don't have my vaccination record, but I don't think I could have enrolled in school or even college without proof. I'll call my doc and see what he thinks.

I love daffodils. You don't see them much here but we always had them in our yard in NJ. Daffodils, crocus, and tulips were my sign that spring is coming.

I'm curious to hear what your dr says about the MMR. With the measles outbreak going on down here, David and I were both wondering if we should get a booster. The last booster I got was Tdap (whooping cough) and that was over some fears with my nephew.

 

[Sans Souci]

I love daffodils, but since it has sub zero here for quite a few days I think it will be some time until I see any in my yard.

It hasn't been that cold here, but it's been in the 20s for the past few days, I am hoping they can withstand this weather. It's only the top inch, if that poking through the dirt.

 

[Sans Souci]

I've thought about it and it's not a bad idea. I have things that I do every day and I push myself to change up what is not an everyday thing so I keep embracing variety. I just wonder if I'll be disciplined enough to do it. I tend to have a lot of "oh, but I feel like doing this" moments which causes me to stack more.

There are definitely regrets in mine as well. Some do involve the academic angles. I also totally understand the regrets with letting opportunities pass over fears of some sort of failure/rejection. I guess I'm just coming to terms that a lot of my college time was built on shallow and superficial friendships/relationships. Some of it was geographic. I was the only one living over a thousand miles away, but everything just faded when I left...which was huge because I had a robust social life with all of these people. It's not so much of a regret with that. It's accepting that I had a lot of fun but it was a product of a highly toxic environment, while also owning up to me being part of that toxicity. While I'd previously decided that it was shallow, the toxic revelation was new. I think somewhere in my mind, I always thought I might bump into some of these "loose ends" over the course of life. Like the connections were so strong and the memories so vivid that it felt inevitable. Now that we're at 3 decades, it's sort of slapped me in the face that it's just not going to happen and that lack of proper closure is more reflective of that overall toxicity. It's been mentally stressful because it's as if I'm breaking up with a perception of such a big (albeit short) part of my past. I got really stuck on thoughts about this one guy at the end. It caused me a lot of stress over the last week or two since I couldn't figure out why the sudden memories and reliving of the hurt. Yes, part of it is because he handled it like a frightened toddler, but normally something like him would have been a tiny blip on my radar. I came to realize that his impact was more profound because he was essentially a bookend on that chapter of life. I won't ramble on anymore, but it's made me see a need for some new area of personal fulfillment.

My problem with working out is I get burned out/bored with working out and I find difficulty finding a type that I can hook into. I like using apps, because there are programs to follow and I don't have to worry about finding a type of workout to do. Before streaming and apps, I'd amassed a large fitness DVD collection and I would stand there for so long trying to select a workout. Or, I would try to create a weekly rotation for myself and again, have analysis paralysis.

Maybe what you're describing is a part of getting older, reflecting on certain periods of your life? I don't think your college friendship experience is unusual. I think a lot of college friendships arise out of convenience--like you live on the same floor, belong to a sorority or you have the same major, so the friendships might be shallow. Without knowing about this friendship, was it really toxic or were you all young out on your own for the first time, trying to negotiate the world as a newly-minted adult? I look back and some of the things I've done in late teens-early 20s and I just wince. I know better now, so I've stopped. I am probably missing the mark here and I don't want to come across as being nosy, so I will shut up now. lol

 

[Sans Souci]

Hello-

I did a lower body strength training workout and went out for a walk in some "lovely" 24 F weather.

Nothing much going on here. Just the same old, same old.

 

[Sans Souci]

I love daffodils. You don't see them much here but we always had them in our yard in NJ. Daffodils, crocus, and tulips were my sign that spring is coming.

I'm curious to hear what your dr says about the MMR. With the measles outbreak going on down here, David and I were both wondering if we should get a booster. The last booster I got was Tdap (whooping cough) and that was over some fears with my nephew.

I didn't talk to my doc, but I had a Telehealth appointment today with my nurse practitioner, so I decided to ask her.

She said an additional booster wouldn't hurt. I did ask her about the 4 vaccinated people out of 58 cases in TX. I asked her about that because that seems to be a high percentage. Two doses provide 97% protection and one is 93% and she said nobody knows if these 4 people got 2 doses or just one. This is what is making me want to get a booster.

 

[Sans Souci]

Happy Friday

I did a circuit training workout today. I'm going to try to go out for a walk later, but it's really windy.

Can you believe this is a feral cat?

 

[Sans Souci]

Good morning-

Checking in with a full body strength training workout. I am going out for a walk in a bit. It's very sunny and a little warmer than it has been lately.

I got my MMR this morning, so I am probably going to feel bit off later on. The pharmacist told me to come back in 28 days for a second dose and I told her I was just coming in for a booster. She asked me how long it's been since I completed the vaccine and I said probably before I started Kindergarten, if not before. She told me to come back. I did mention that the MMR is supposed to provide lifetime protection. She agreed, but then said there are people in Texas who are vaccinated who are getting measles and if you're completely vaccinated, 3 out of 100 people should get it. At any rate, she said it doesn't hurt to get it again, which comports with what my nurse practitioner told me Thursday.

 

[HouCuseChickie]

My problem with working out is I get burned out/bored with working out and I find difficulty finding a type that I can hook into. I like using apps, because there are programs to follow and I don't have to worry about finding a type of workout to do. Before streaming and apps, I'd amassed a large fitness DVD collection and I would stand there for so long trying to select a workout. Or, I would try to create a weekly rotation for myself and again, have analysis paralysis.

Maybe what you're describing is a part of getting older, reflecting on certain periods of your life? I don't think your college friendship experience is unusual. I think a lot of college friendships arise out of convenience--like you live on the same floor, belong to a sorority or you have the same major, so the friendships might be shallow. Without knowing about this friendship, was it really toxic or were you all young out on your own for the first time, trying to negotiate the world as a newly-minted adult? I look back and some of the things I've done in late teens-early 20s and I just wince. I know better now, so I've stopped. I am probably missing the mark here and I don't want to come across as being nosy, so I will shut up now. lol

I guess I'm the opposite. I tend to lose focus and fall off if I have a lot of options and try to incorporate variety. My greatest successes always revolve around me having sort of monotonous cardio. I guess the main variety for me comes from the music fueling the exercise. Of course, the variety you have probably makes you less injury prone.

Age is definitely a part of these feelings. This is really the first time I've found myself trying to wrap my head around the passage of time. I still wonder how it would have been if it all didn't end so abruptly. I lived anywhere from 800-1200 miles away from my closest college friends. I also moved to northern FL 6 days after high school graduation, so going "home" was going back to nobody but immediate family to a college town where I was an unknown and felt so isolated. Most everyone else I knew had the luxury of living near people they grew up with as well as several handfuls of college friends who were relatively close. Most of them drifted apart, but a slow drift is less emotionally jarring. Some of these friends actually still meet up. No, it's not a regular thing like it was back in the day, but enough of them lived close enough to maintain something so that things like birthdays, girl trips, theater days, etc. still happen from time to time. One girl I know (different sorority) actually does an annual trip with about 30+ girls so that they continue to stay in touch and don't favor people in one part of the country. I got none of that. I'm extremely social and extroverted, as well as a bit of an eternal optimist. So, I think somewhere deep down, I couldn't believe that such a powerful social experience could end so swiftly with no random or planned run ins with these people. So, the coming to terms with the time passed is also coming to terms that I didn't get anything long-lasting out of it aside from memories and some Facebook friends.

I don't mind the nosiness with the toxicity, but this is a lengthy story to really gain a full appreciation for what was going on. I opened up to a local longtime friend about some of this recently and she was floored...and this was only high level details. She suggested I write about it for the cathartic experience, but it started to sound more like a scandalous book or bingeworthy series. So, I'm trying to find a time to really write it out. This is going to sound so conceited, especially since I suffered from imposters syndrome, but I was sort of a top ranking "it-girl." I hate saying this because people always have this "poor little popular girl" reaction. Still, most people just see the part where I was getting all kinds of perks and attention while not seeing how I was being used, manipulated, and bullied by my sisters and often left heartbroken on most occasions because my social status created a lot of fear among the guys that played out in quite a number of ways. I guess the only good part of that was when I found myself left alone at a fraternity house, there were usually a number of guys who stuck around that made sure I got home safely. They were usually the ones who were afraid of sharing their interest in me but smart enough to use this time to at least try and get to know me while also not trying to date through my friends to try and get to me. In any event, it's a long and messy story. I had a lot of fun at times, but it's hard to look back on these "friendships" when 95% of the female ones were a lot of use and abuse and 95% of the male ones were just guys who couldn't muster up the courage to try and date me until we started getting to the end.

 

[Sans Souci]

I guess I'm the opposite. I tend to lose focus and fall off if I have a lot of options and try to incorporate variety. My greatest successes always revolve around me having sort of monotonous cardio. I guess the main variety for me comes from the music fueling the exercise. Of course, the variety you have probably makes you less injury prone.

Age is definitely a part of these feelings. This is really the first time I've found myself trying to wrap my head around the passage of time. I still wonder how it would have been if it all didn't end so abruptly. I lived anywhere from 800-1200 miles away from my closest college friends. I also moved to northern FL 6 days after high school graduation, so going "home" was going back to nobody but immediate family to a college town where I was an unknown and felt so isolated. Most everyone else I knew had the luxury of living near people they grew up with as well as several handfuls of college friends who were relatively close. Most of them drifted apart, but a slow drift is less emotionally jarring. Some of these friends actually still meet up. No, it's not a regular thing like it was back in the day, but enough of them lived close enough to maintain something so that things like birthdays, girl trips, theater days, etc. still happen from time to time. One girl I know (different sorority) actually does an annual trip with about 30+ girls so that they continue to stay in touch and don't favor people in one part of the country. I got none of that. I'm extremely social and extroverted, as well as a bit of an eternal optimist. So, I think somewhere deep down, I couldn't believe that such a powerful social experience could end so swiftly with no random or planned run ins with these people. So, the coming to terms with the time passed is also coming to terms that I didn't get anything long-lasting out of it aside from memories and some Facebook friends.

I don't mind the nosiness with the toxicity, but this is a lengthy story to really gain a full appreciation for what was going on. I opened up to a local longtime friend about some of this recently and she was floored...and this was only high level details. She suggested I write about it for the cathartic experience, but it started to sound more like a scandalous book or bingeworthy series. So, I'm trying to find a time to really write it out. This is going to sound so conceited, especially since I suffered from imposters syndrome, but I was sort of a top ranking "it-girl." I hate saying this because people always have this "poor little popular girl" reaction. Still, most people just see the part where I was getting all kinds of perks and attention while not seeing how I was being used, manipulated, and bullied by my sisters and often left heartbroken on most occasions because my social status created a lot of fear among the guys that played out in quite a number of ways. I guess the only good part of that was when I found myself left alone at a fraternity house, there were usually a number of guys who stuck around that made sure I got home safely. They were usually the ones who were afraid of sharing their interest in me but smart enough to use this time to at least try and get to know me while also not trying to date through my friends to try and get to me. In any event, it's a long and messy story. I had a lot of fun at times, but it's hard to look back on these "friendships" when 95% of the female ones were a lot of use and abuse and 95% of the male ones were just guys who couldn't muster up the courage to try and date me until we started getting to the end.

That sounds like a really good idea to write it all down. Who knows? Maybe you will craft something that can be shopped around as a book or a TV series? That would be wild! Or maybe you just write about it, make peace with it and keep moving forward. You could even put it on Substack. There is a woman who writes on Substack whose whole schtick is this quasi-relationship with Dave Grohl. She's met him a few times and they have some sort of more than a para social relationship, but not a "real one." She claims they have sent each other flirty emails/texts and other weird stuff. This woman was able to parlay this into a book. I'd rather read something like your experience over "I almost slept with Dave Grohl, but I had a boyfriend at the time." nonsense.

 

[Sans Souci]

Hello-

I did a full body, cross training workout this morning.

Luckily, it seems I was spared any side effects from my MMR shot. I am grateful, I usually feel sick after I get vaccinations. I did feel a bit off yesterday, but it was mild. I felt a little tired and my arm was a bit sore. I still went out for a walk, made dinner, other daily activities.

My husband is supposed to go to Japan for work next week, but they have started making the government credit card limits $1. My husband's card still has a higher limit, but the $1 limit is going to be rolled out across all agencies. He doesn't want to be in Japan to find out his limit is $1 and have to pay OOP for his hotel and food. This is just unprofessional behavior from an unserious person. He might never see that money again and only a fool would pay to work. There is already a process to prevent fraud in place. When he booked his tickets, there were only 2 seats with extra leg room, so he paid for the additional upgrade with his money. If he can't go on this trip, we are out $500. I don't like this considering he could lose his job at any moment. The only good thing about this right now, is there has been an uptick in head hunters contacting him right now. I am hoping if he does lose his job, there is a seamless transition into a new one.

 

[ajrwdwgirl]

Hello-

I did a full body, cross training workout this morning.

Luckily, it seems I was spared any side effects from my MMR shot. I am grateful, I usually feel sick after I get vaccinations. I did feel a bit off yesterday, but it was mild. I felt a little tired and my arm was a bit sore. I still went out for a walk, made dinner, other daily activities.

My husband is supposed to go to Japan for work next week, but they have started making the government credit card limits $1. My husband's card still has a higher limit, but the $1 limit is going to be rolled out across all agencies. He doesn't want to be in Japan to find out his limit is $1 and have to pay OOP for his hotel and food. This is just unprofessional behavior from an unserious person. He might never see that money again and only a fool would pay to work. There is already a process to prevent fraud in place. When he booked his tickets, there were only 2 seats with extra leg room, so he paid for the additional upgrade with his money. If he can't go on this trip, we are out $500. I don't like this considering he could lose his job at any moment. The only good thing about this right now, is there has been an uptick in head hunters contacting him right now. I am hoping if he does lose his job, there is a seamless transition into a new one.

Holy Moly! A $1 limit? What is the use of that?! All this stuff is so crazy to me. I wish your husband could get specifics on the trip, he shouldn't have to go and hope that the company credit card works. Or even wonder if he can go or not. Good news though that some headhunters have been sniffing around, that should provide a little reassurance.

 

[HouCuseChickie]

That sounds like a really good idea to write it all down. Who knows? Maybe you will craft something that can be shopped around as a book or a TV series? That would be wild! Or maybe you just write about it, make peace with it and keep moving forward. You could even put it on Substack. There is a woman who writes on Substack whose whole schtick is this quasi-relationship with Dave Grohl. She's met him a few times and they have some sort of more than a para social relationship, but not a "real one." She claims they have sent each other flirty emails/texts and other weird stuff. This woman was able to parlay this into a book. I'd rather read something like your experience over "I almost slept with Dave Grohl, but I had a boyfriend at the time." nonsense.

I've never been on Substack, but I figure something like this could sell. It's nothing my husband would ever watch or read, but there's a reason why catty girl dramas attract an audience. Interesting with the Dave Grohl story writing. I do really like him but it almost sounds a littler stalker-esque when you've got someone writing about a celeb in that manner. Still, I could see how some might find it entertaining.

 

[HouCuseChickie]

Happy Friday

I did a circuit training workout today. I'm going to try to go out for a walk later, but it's really windy.

Can you believe this is a feral cat?
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I meant to reply to this the other day. She looks like your everyday house cat. I would never in a million years think this is a feral animal. She looks so happy

 

[HouCuseChickie]

Hard to believe, but it's week 11 for me. I'm still on track, but I'm feeling some frustration. I know it's a slow process when you do this the hard way but there are days when I'd like to wake up and be at a point where I'm just trying to maintain. I guess one positive...I was able to get my engagement ring on my finger today. Still not sure I'd risk trying to wear it with my matching band, but it's a bit smaller than the band. So, even my fingers are getting smaller.

Sam has a 6pm game tonight about an hour to our north, so I'm trying to get in all of my working out before we have to leave. I did my morning walk (only 2.5 miles today since a beeping smoke detector had me running behind), I've done arms and squats, about to work in some abs, paced around while standing for an hour, and will bike when I go to lunch. I think I may have even inspired David to finally start getting up and moving. He went walking after work. It was only about 1.4 miles, but it's a start. Debating about how I want to handle Friday. Sunday is normally my break day, but Sam is playing nearly 2 hours away on Friday. We're going to need to leave the house right after work to make it and won't be getting home until late. I'm leaning towards shifting my break to Friday and doing two long walk weekend days both Saturday and Sunday, with shorter bike rides.

 

[HouCuseChickie]

Luckily, it seems I was spared any side effects from my MMR shot. I am grateful, I usually feel sick after I get vaccinations. I did feel a bit off yesterday, but it was mild. I felt a little tired and my arm was a bit sore. I still went out for a walk, made dinner, other daily activities.

Still debating about going to get ours. I also usually get sick after vaccinations, but after talking to my parents last night about their experiences as kids (actually getting these illnesses) I think I'm willing to take the chance. David isn't on board yet since he feels it tends to be more common in kids.

 

[Sans Souci]

Holy Moly! A $1 limit? What is the use of that?! All this stuff is so crazy to me. I wish your husband could get specifics on the trip, he shouldn't have to go and hope that the company credit card works. Or even wonder if he can go or not. Good news though that some headhunters have been sniffing around, that should provide a little reassurance.

The $1 limit is a way stop travel to "combat fraud" that was already very rare. The CR deadline also happens during his trip to Japan, so he likely would not be able to get an increase in his credit limit during a shut down. He was going to examine an American bank's Asian offices. Also, these are government credit cards that need to be used because the government doesn't pay taxes on hotels when people are on missions. His pay comes from banks that want to do business in the US. It's a fee and his agency goes into banks, looks to see if they are compliant with different regulations and laws, then tells the bank what it needs to do to be compliant. It's basically a consulting fee. None of his pay is from the tax payer, but they have let go people in his agency. I really wish the public would stop believing the smear campaign against them right now, some of the language being used is dehumanizing and I have to think that is deliberate.

 

[Sans Souci]

I've never been on Substack, but I figure something like this could sell. It's nothing my husband would ever watch or read, but there's a reason why catty girl dramas attract an audience. Interesting with the Dave Grohl story writing. I do really like him but it almost sounds a littler stalker-esque when you've got someone writing about a celeb in that manner. Still, I could see how some might find it entertaining.

Substack is like Facebook for blogs. It's like a mash up of Facebook Tik Tok, Tumblr, and Twitter. You can charge a monthly subscription fee for your writing (They call it a newsletter.) or you can keep it free. It's up to you. This Dave Grohl quasi-groupie keeps showing up in my feed and I read her stuff here and there, because it's so unselfconsciously unhinged. She actually wrote "I bear no ill will towards his wife." lol Girl. Come on now.

 

[Sans Souci]

Still debating about going to get ours. I also usually get sick after vaccinations, but after talking to my parents last night about their experiences as kids (actually getting these illnesses) I think I'm willing to take the chance. David isn't on board yet since he feels it tends to be more common in kids.

If you've had both, you have lifetime protection. I am just someone who is always worried about getting ill. They say it's a good idea to get a booster if you're in the thick of an outbreak, work in healthcare or traveling internationally. I think if you were born before 1968, you need to get both again, because prior to 1968, they were not using the live virus vaccines.

The reason why this is affecting mostly children is because their parents didn't vaccinate them. The parents are likely vaccinated themselves. Don't be fooled. I read if you've been exposed, your chances of becoming ill with measles is 90%.

 

[Sans Souci]

Hard to believe, but it's week 11 for me. I'm still on track, but I'm feeling some frustration. I know it's a slow process when you do this the hard way but there are days when I'd like to wake up and be at a point where I'm just trying to maintain. I guess one positive...I was able to get my engagement ring on my finger today. Still not sure I'd risk trying to wear it with my matching band, but it's a bit smaller than the band. So, even my fingers are getting smaller.

Sam has a 6pm game tonight about an hour to our north, so I'm trying to get in all of my working out before we have to leave. I did my morning walk (only 2.5 miles today since a beeping smoke detector had me running behind), I've done arms and squats, about to work in some abs, paced around while standing for an hour, and will bike when I go to lunch. I think I may have even inspired David to finally start getting up and moving. He went walking after work. It was only about 1.4 miles, but it's a start. Debating about how I want to handle Friday. Sunday is normally my break day, but Sam is playing nearly 2 hours away on Friday. We're going to need to leave the house right after work to make it and won't be getting home until late. I'm leaning towards shifting my break to Friday and doing two long walk weekend days both Saturday and Sunday, with shorter bike rides.

You could always focus on things that have nothing to do with the scale or weight. Are you lifting heavier weights? Are you covering more ground on your bike rides in the same amount of time? Honestly, just keeping a regular routine is something to be proud of, especially when you feel like you want to throw in the towel.