working out for Disney

[HouCuseChickie]

I don't know if this is helpful, but could you sit down on Sunday and map out your week? Like, maybe doing strength training splits after your walk. You can decide which body parts you want to work which day and choose a few exercises for that workout to work those part, so you can keep it short after your walk. I have a workout DVD called "4 Day Split" and the first half hour of the workout is a type of cardio, then second half hour is strength training different parts. I was thinking something like that. I can't remember how it was split, but you could do what's good for your needs.

I have those types thoughts, but mine are more like regrets. Opportunities I passed up because I thought I would fail or do badly or schools I didn't apply to because I thought I'd get rejected. Or feeling guilty about maintaining boundaries and getting into situations where I felt uncomfortable because I didn't want the person to get angry with me, that sort of thing.

I've thought about it and it's not a bad idea. I have things that I do every day and I push myself to change up what is not an everyday thing so I keep embracing variety. I just wonder if I'll be disciplined enough to do it. I tend to have a lot of "oh, but I feel like doing this" moments which causes me to stack more.

There are definitely regrets in mine as well. Some do involve the academic angles. I also totally understand the regrets with letting opportunities pass over fears of some sort of failure/rejection. I guess I'm just coming to terms that a lot of my college time was built on shallow and superficial friendships/relationships. Some of it was geographic. I was the only one living over a thousand miles away, but everything just faded when I left...which was huge because I had a robust social life with all of these people. It's not so much of a regret with that. It's accepting that I had a lot of fun but it was a product of a highly toxic environment, while also owning up to me being part of that toxicity. While I'd previously decided that it was shallow, the toxic revelation was new. I think somewhere in my mind, I always thought I might bump into some of these "loose ends" over the course of life. Like the connections were so strong and the memories so vivid that it felt inevitable. Now that we're at 3 decades, it's sort of slapped me in the face that it's just not going to happen and that lack of proper closure is more reflective of that overall toxicity. It's been mentally stressful because it's as if I'm breaking up with a perception of such a big (albeit short) part of my past. I got really stuck on thoughts about this one guy at the end. It caused me a lot of stress over the last week or two since I couldn't figure out why the sudden memories and reliving of the hurt. Yes, part of it is because he handled it like a frightened toddler, but normally something like him would have been a tiny blip on my radar. I came to realize that his impact was more profound because he was essentially a bookend on that chapter of life. I won't ramble on anymore, but it's made me see a need for some new area of personal fulfillment.

 

[HouCuseChickie]

Hello-

Checking in with strength training today (upper body and HIIT) and yesterday (full body) and two very bracing walks today and yesterday. It was freezing outside. I had to put on my "Chicago winter coat" and my fleece-lined leggings.

I saw daffodils in my yard starting to poke through the dirt. That made me feel a bit happy when I saw them. Everything feels so off right now to me and I am trying to look for positive things. At least spring is coming.

I scheduled an MMR booster at CVS this weekend. I am wondering if I should cancel because I just read two doses are 97% effective and last a lifetime. I just don't have my vaccination record, but I don't think I could have enrolled in school or even college without proof. I'll call my doc and see what he thinks.

I love daffodils. You don't see them much here but we always had them in our yard in NJ. Daffodils, crocus, and tulips were my sign that spring is coming.

I'm curious to hear what your dr says about the MMR. With the measles outbreak going on down here, David and I were both wondering if we should get a booster. The last booster I got was Tdap (whooping cough) and that was over some fears with my nephew.

 

[Sans Souci]

I love daffodils, but since it has sub zero here for quite a few days I think it will be some time until I see any in my yard.

It hasn't been that cold here, but it's been in the 20s for the past few days, I am hoping they can withstand this weather. It's only the top inch, if that poking through the dirt.

 

[Sans Souci]

I've thought about it and it's not a bad idea. I have things that I do every day and I push myself to change up what is not an everyday thing so I keep embracing variety. I just wonder if I'll be disciplined enough to do it. I tend to have a lot of "oh, but I feel like doing this" moments which causes me to stack more.

There are definitely regrets in mine as well. Some do involve the academic angles. I also totally understand the regrets with letting opportunities pass over fears of some sort of failure/rejection. I guess I'm just coming to terms that a lot of my college time was built on shallow and superficial friendships/relationships. Some of it was geographic. I was the only one living over a thousand miles away, but everything just faded when I left...which was huge because I had a robust social life with all of these people. It's not so much of a regret with that. It's accepting that I had a lot of fun but it was a product of a highly toxic environment, while also owning up to me being part of that toxicity. While I'd previously decided that it was shallow, the toxic revelation was new. I think somewhere in my mind, I always thought I might bump into some of these "loose ends" over the course of life. Like the connections were so strong and the memories so vivid that it felt inevitable. Now that we're at 3 decades, it's sort of slapped me in the face that it's just not going to happen and that lack of proper closure is more reflective of that overall toxicity. It's been mentally stressful because it's as if I'm breaking up with a perception of such a big (albeit short) part of my past. I got really stuck on thoughts about this one guy at the end. It caused me a lot of stress over the last week or two since I couldn't figure out why the sudden memories and reliving of the hurt. Yes, part of it is because he handled it like a frightened toddler, but normally something like him would have been a tiny blip on my radar. I came to realize that his impact was more profound because he was essentially a bookend on that chapter of life. I won't ramble on anymore, but it's made me see a need for some new area of personal fulfillment.

My problem with working out is I get burned out/bored with working out and I find difficulty finding a type that I can hook into. I like using apps, because there are programs to follow and I don't have to worry about finding a type of workout to do. Before streaming and apps, I'd amassed a large fitness DVD collection and I would stand there for so long trying to select a workout. Or, I would try to create a weekly rotation for myself and again, have analysis paralysis.

Maybe what you're describing is a part of getting older, reflecting on certain periods of your life? I don't think your college friendship experience is unusual. I think a lot of college friendships arise out of convenience--like you live on the same floor, belong to a sorority or you have the same major, so the friendships might be shallow. Without knowing about this friendship, was it really toxic or were you all young out on your own for the first time, trying to negotiate the world as a newly-minted adult? I look back and some of the things I've done in late teens-early 20s and I just wince. I know better now, so I've stopped. I am probably missing the mark here and I don't want to come across as being nosy, so I will shut up now. lol

 

[Sans Souci]

Hello-

I did a lower body strength training workout and went out for a walk in some "lovely" 24 F weather.

Nothing much going on here. Just the same old, same old.

 

[Sans Souci]

I love daffodils. You don't see them much here but we always had them in our yard in NJ. Daffodils, crocus, and tulips were my sign that spring is coming.

I'm curious to hear what your dr says about the MMR. With the measles outbreak going on down here, David and I were both wondering if we should get a booster. The last booster I got was Tdap (whooping cough) and that was over some fears with my nephew.

I didn't talk to my doc, but I had a Telehealth appointment today with my nurse practitioner, so I decided to ask her.

She said an additional booster wouldn't hurt. I did ask her about the 4 vaccinated people out of 58 cases in TX. I asked her about that because that seems to be a high percentage. Two doses provide 97% protection and one is 93% and she said nobody knows if these 4 people got 2 doses or just one. This is what is making me want to get a booster.

 

[Sans Souci]

Happy Friday

I did a circuit training workout today. I'm going to try to go out for a walk later, but it's really windy.

Can you believe this is a feral cat?