Okay,
So it is almost VERY hard to even write this post. This is a picture of me in Disney in December for Christmas 2008. LOVED my Disney just as much then as I do now.
That was probably my twentieth trip to Disney. The only roller coaster I will ride is Space Mountain and Big Thunder Mountain. I was always afraid to try the others and also afraid I would try to get on and not fit in the seats.
While I ADORED doing all of the amazing and wonderful things Disney offered, I would sit and people watch and wish I was smaller and could wear little sundresses and tank tops and outfits that were cute and kept me cool.
I always walked around feeling like everyone was staring at me. See I am also 5'11" tall. I loved all of the good food at all of the restaurants, but was almost afraid to eat because I just KNEW people were looking to see how much I ate or what poor choices i was making.
While my hubby has always been AMAZING and made me feel like the most gorgeous woman on earth, even at 325 pounds, I always felt like I wished i could be cute and that he didn't have to walk around with his big hefty wife.
I would look at all the cute little swimsuit coverups for sale at the Polynesian and the cute womens clothes everywhere and would get so frustrated because VERY LITTLE came in the 3X I needed. It was almost sad in some ways, even though it was my favorite place on earth!
SOOOO not to be a downer, but all of that was a precursor to this.
This is me now after working very hard to lose 135 pounds.
I still have about 25 pounds to go, but feel so much better. I am training for my first 5k in June and am looking forward to a Disney trip where I do not feel like the whole world is looking at the six foot tall fat girl. I am looking forward to going to France and trying ONE BITE of my hubby's pastry and not having the whole thing! I am looking forward to enjoying healthy options at my meals, jogging around the lake at CBR to start my mornings, etc.
I am looking forward to having so much more stamina to do all of the fun things I love and not feeling tired in the evenings and not feeling I am going to pass out in the bed after 12 hours of running around the parks.
I know for most of you who have never been "big", this will not make a lot of sense, but for me this trip is a big deal. This will be my first time EVER in Disney where I feel like a "normal" person.
I feel like this trip will be so liberating! My question is this, what is one big thing I can do to celebrate the new healthier me? I am DEATHLY afraid of roller coasters, so I am not sure if something like riding Everest will be it for me. BUT there has to be SOMETHING I could not have done at 325 pounds that I can do to celebrate?
I am one of those sappy and sentimental people so it needs to be something pretty cool and not really silly. Something my hubby and I will remember for a long time.
Any ideas from all of you pros?