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Disnut

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I keep getting phone calls on my home phone for a day care. The day care isn't getting any of their phone calls. I call home from my cell phone, my home phone rang but the day care answered my cell phone. :dazzle: Somewhere the line is getting crossed. :zipit: I feel bad for the parents that are trying to get ahold of the daycare.
 
Dukeblue1227

Dukeblue1227

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nibblesandbits said:
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How are you today Joe?
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Very very positive now to be honest...

if people don't mind I will digress (I always use words I feel fit the context, but I'll be honest, really don't know if they're the right word or not... such as saying "I'll digress" feels like that word SHOULD mean "won't talk about it" but I'm gonna, it fits the context... ROLL WITH IT HOMIES)

I heard a sad song on my lunch break... frown. Let myself get kind of sad. Started thinking "why am I not more upset... seriously WHY?!?!" Like I should be. Went to my number 1 tear-jerker... Tail As Old As Time... cuz it's got the Disney connection with the love song... :o

Listened to it like FOUR TIMES trying DESPERATELY to cry... forced out like one tear on each side... but everytime I'd almost get happy... the harder I tried the more and more relieved and randomly happy I felt.

So I was just like... what the heck... SHE IS WITH SOMEONE ELSE... BE UPSET!!!!! And granted, yes this 110% bothers me and when I force myself to think about it, it absolutely DESTROYS me... but... it was like in my mind, and in my heart I was just like "you've let it go man, let it go now, who cares, not you anymore... you're happy now... just let it go"

And then I was like... I know in my heart, 100%... I just really don't feel it for this girl anymore. I don't wanna be with her, I know that... it's silly to be sad over this...

And then I just realized... it's not her I miss, it's a gf. This is why I get so worked up on girls. I miss having someone. And also, because I know she is with someone else... I feel like... less of a person. Like, I'm still not ready to be with anyone else, and I know that. I still in my weakest moments wish I was still with her. I 100% wish in my heart this never happened because we WERE happy. So that's why I get worked up about girls... I don't miss her, a miss someone. And her having someone else makes me feel kind of more like... rejected, a loser if you may (I don't really feel like a loser. I truly, once again, finally, love myself).

Plus like... this helps me, but I think over and over and over again basically that... this is stupid. This is just stupid and surreal. This should NOT have happened. Because, it never should have. When you're with someone for seven years... how do yo NOT sit them down and say "I still wanna be with you, but this needs to be different." (and I know in the beginning you guys were saying she just didn't wanna be with me anymore and that was that... but like... she did and just wouldn't let herself. She made this breakup harder on me... so much harder. She was awful. In January she was telling me how much she still loved me, how BADLY she still wanted to be with me but was scared of failure. How BADLY she wished I was sleeping next to her, and even making flirty jokes about... and this wasn't like one weak night, it was for roughly 3 weeks in January... she even invited me over, and immediately took it back when I said yes...)

so regardless, at the time of the breakup, she still wanted it... a simple sit down and saying "this needs to be different, or else I just don't think I can do it anymore." THAT would have saved SEVEN YEARS.

That's why it feels like, this is so stupid. This is DUMB... that could have saved such a long relationship...

BUT... this did happen. Because, seven years isn't worth one sit down to try and work it out... it was easier to let go, forget about me, be miserable forever... hang onto me absurdly tightly for 5-6 months... and then randomly let go and find someone new????

That is NOT a person any human being should wanna be with. That's messed up... seriously... seven years is no joke, you don't just walk out on it LIKE THAT...

She's his friggin problem now... not mine...



:o sorry for the vent.
 

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