Well Joe is awesome. We all know THAT.
I agree though. I know I'm like close to being back to 100% myself... but a lot of times I am crazy with my antics (I prove this often on here) but sometimes I'll literally step back and be like "okay, I know I'm weird... but I'm being insanely weird, what the heck am I even talking about anymore?"
Kinda like I'm going OVER THE TOP to try and get back to my old self. Like I'm over doing it...
And I just know, I've done a lot of significant growth, really become a lot more mature (shut up I know I'm immature), but deep down, I've really become very mature, very deep/spiritual, become very aware of myself, become VERY appreciative for everything in my life... really found a way to flip every situation around into a positive, how to make the most of everything happening... how to stay optimistic...
But I haven't really... not sure the perfect way to word this; but haven't let all this self-improvement and personal growth fully bloom into who I am quite yet. I have my moments, a lot of time spent in reflection and feel very positive... and then look at who I am when I'm just being me and know... I'm just a fun, happy-go-lucky kid who is just trying to always make life interesting, entertaining, and fun... but I also know... I still do some immature things, still act somewhat out of sorts... still have some molding of myself to do and go through with before I really want to settle back down into a relationship.
Right now I feel like i have a lot of tools to really make some girl extremely happy and thankful to have me... but that time is not right now.
Naturally I will grow more and more into the things I've learned deep down, and naturally someone will come into my life who I will really being able to be myself, my new self with...
(did ANY of this make sense? I just rambled for like 10 minutes...
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tee hee hee I'm a WEIRD BEARD!
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