Hey all..
didn't mean to scare you all. I'm just kinda overwhelmed right now, and I don't want to think anymore. Like, ever wish your brain had an "Off" switch? I'd really like one right about now.
Just so much going on right now. Between Marc STILL being sick, and worrying about him, worrying about if it's H1N1, and if Anastasia might get it. Worrying about how we're going to fit everything in that we need to by the time we leave for Disney. We had to cancel our weekend's plans because Marc's still not feeling well. And Marc's family is springing ANOTHER get-together on us, as if we all didn't see each other enough over the holiday, what with ME hosting a Christmas dinner on the Sunday after Christmas when I wasn't supposed to.
Plus we've got to fit in another get-together, a baby shower, dinner with my best friend, a visit to see his grandmother in Cumberland, seeing my grandfather for his 90th birthday (which we're missing while in Cumberland), not to mention de-Christmasing the house, and packing on top of it all.
And then my SIL says she's pregnant with kid #3 today, and she's due on my mom's birthday, which is only 4 days from Anya's birthday. So not looking forward to seeing how that plays out for future birthday celebrations, and having to pick my mom over my neice/nephew, and the feathers that will ruffle.
Not to mention how this brings the whole question to the front about whether WE want another kid, CAN we even have another kid in the first place, what it'll do to my endometriosis to be off medication long enough to give it a real try... all sorts of issues. We had been kind of ignoring it for a long time now, and this just brought it all to the forefront again.
Plus Marc and I are getting kinda cabin fever - sick of each other. He's been home far too long, and been doing so poorly, and has been in such a MOOD, and I'm taking care of the big baby and the little one too.
I just want to be numb right now.