nibblesandbits
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Joe...that's a big step for you. ((Hugs))
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Suiting Up for Spring with Magic Friends
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WDWmazprty
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WaltzingMatilda
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Very very positive now to be honest...
if people don't mind I will digress (I always use words I feel fit the context, but I'll be honest, really don't know if they're the right word or not... such as saying "I'll digress" feels like that word SHOULD mean "won't talk about it" but I'm gonna, it fits the context... ROLL WITH IT HOMIES)
I heard a sad song on my lunch break... frown. Let myself get kind of sad. Started thinking "why am I not more upset... seriously WHY?!?!" Like I should be. Went to my number 1 tear-jerker... Tail As Old As Time... cuz it's got the Disney connection with the love song...
Listened to it like FOUR TIMES trying DESPERATELY to cry... forced out like one tear on each side... but everytime I'd almost get happy... the harder I tried the more and more relieved and randomly happy I felt.
So I was just like... what the heck... SHE IS WITH SOMEONE ELSE... BE UPSET!!!!! And granted, yes this 110% bothers me and when I force myself to think about it, it absolutely DESTROYS me... but... it was like in my mind, and in my heart I was just like "you've let it go man, let it go now, who cares, not you anymore... you're happy now... just let it go"
And then I was like... I know in my heart, 100%... I just really don't feel it for this girl anymore. I don't wanna be with her, I know that... it's silly to be sad over this...
And then I just realized... it's not her I miss, it's a gf. This is why I get so worked up on girls. I miss having someone. And also, because I know she is with someone else... I feel like... less of a person. Like, I'm still not ready to be with anyone else, and I know that. I still in my weakest moments wish I was still with her. I 100% wish in my heart this never happened because we WERE happy. So that's why I get worked up about girls... I don't miss her, a miss someone. And her having someone else makes me feel kind of more like... rejected, a loser if you may (I don't really feel like a loser. I truly, once again, finally, love myself).
Plus like... this helps me, but I think over and over and over again basically that... this is stupid. This is just stupid and surreal. This should NOT have happened. Because, it never should have. When you're with someone for seven years... how do yo NOT sit them down and say "I still wanna be with you, but this needs to be different." (and I know in the beginning you guys were saying she just didn't wanna be with me anymore and that was that... but like... she did and just wouldn't let herself. She made this breakup harder on me... so much harder. She was awful. In January she was telling me how much she still loved me, how BADLY she still wanted to be with me but was scared of failure. How BADLY she wished I was sleeping next to her, and even making flirty jokes about... and this wasn't like one weak night, it was for roughly 3 weeks in January... she even invited me over, and immediately took it back when I said yes...)
so regardless, at the time of the breakup, she still wanted it... a simple sit down and saying "this needs to be different, or else I just don't think I can do it anymore." THAT would have saved SEVEN YEARS.
That's why it feels like, this is so stupid. This is DUMB... that could have saved such a long relationship...
BUT... this did happen. Because, seven years isn't worth one sit down to try and work it out... it was easier to let go, forget about me, be miserable forever... hang onto me absurdly tightly for 5-6 months... and then randomly let go and find someone new????
That is NOT a person any human being should wanna be with. That's messed up... seriously... seven years is no joke, you don't just walk out on it LIKE THAT...
She's his friggin problem now... not mine...
sorry for the vent.
What a .
Yea, I said it. It needed to be said.
:lookaroun
WaltzingMatilda
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Gah, I'm reading "coming out" stories on the web. Some of them are so emotional...
WDWmazprty
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WaltzingMatilda
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:lol:
nibblesandbits
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Hi Jon! :wave: How are you feeling?
nibblesandbits
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I love you Amy...:lol: Yes, that did need to be said.
And congrats on the wedding! :kiss:
nibblesandbits
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Bye Susan!
Dukeblue1227
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:ROFLOL: :ROFLOL: :ROFLOL: :ROFLOL: :ROFLOL:
You're the best Amy. You really are.
I used to keep Kat informed all the time with everyone... and in my email I came across an email I sent her. It was from like early Decemember...
Allie and I had a conversation... pretty low-key convo then, and I was telling Kat how I was so confused because at the end of the conversation I just said "goodnight" when she said goodnight... then there was like a pause on the phone and she was like "I love you..."
So i said it back.
4 months after breakup... SHE saying it to me... to end the phone call, like we were still saying it.
A week later she refused to even talk to me at all... until January when it got to its worst.
Honestly, me telling you all the ways she completely made me utterly miserable during these past 8 months would be the length of the bible. She did stuff like that ALLLLLLLL the time to me... ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLL THE TIME...
As I've said before... that's why I vanished from this site for like 3 months... I was so beyond messed up in the head... and I didn't deserve that stuff.
My mom asked me to spend the night at home a few weekends ago cuz it made sense... I said I'd come home, but wouldn't stayover... too many memories in my bedroom... and when my mom told my dad that... my dad's EXACT phrase was... well the EXACT phrase you just used yourself.
It's true.
I realize it more and more everyday.
(Sorry we're still talking about this, been 8 months... this has just been a lot harder than I really thought it would be...)
Dukeblue1227
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I've been sitting on budweiser.com all day!!! :lookaroun
I had my picture taken last night with one of their promotional girls... they were giving out beads and cuzies... I asked if I could have a hat, said I needed to take a picture with her... so I did. Guy told me the picture would be on budweiser.com...
there are ZERO places on that website where they'd post pictures...
I think it was just a random hot girl who wanted her picture taken with me... :lookaroun
I had my picture taken last night with one of their promotional girls... they were giving out beads and cuzies... I asked if I could have a hat, said I needed to take a picture with her... so I did. Guy told me the picture would be on budweiser.com...
there are ZERO places on that website where they'd post pictures...
I think it was just a random hot girl who wanted her picture taken with me... :lookaroun
nibblesandbits
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((Hugs)) again.
Of course it's hard. It was a 7 year relationship. You don't just get over that. :kiss: But you're making great strides recently.
Of course it's hard. It was a 7 year relationship. You don't just get over that. :kiss: But you're making great strides recently.
nibblesandbits
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:lookaroun
DisneySam
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WDWmazprty
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Dukeblue1227
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Has anyone on here seen the My New Haircut youtube video???
Not something I'll post because it's heavily heavily inappropriate... HILARIOUS... but inappropriate... but I really wanted to just quote it... but didn't think anyone would get it...
Now I just wanna know if anyone knows what I'm talking about???
:lookaroun
Not something I'll post because it's heavily heavily inappropriate... HILARIOUS... but inappropriate... but I really wanted to just quote it... but didn't think anyone would get it...
Now I just wanna know if anyone knows what I'm talking about???
:lookaroun
nibblesandbits
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Good...I'm glad.
I'm doing alright.
With the exception that my Grandpa in law fell a few days ago, his hand is swollen and he needs to go to the hospital and get it checked, but no one in WHF's family seems to want to make him...
