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The like is for K being home and for you getting to see a doctor sooner. I hope they can figure out what's causing it.

Is it weird to have K home now that she doesn't live there? Does Sam miss her a lot, or were they not really close? I remember when my brother went to college and we had been really close in high school, involved in all the same activities and had a lot of the same friends. It was so hard for me. Most of my friends had been in his class, so they were all off at college and a lot of the ones who had been in my class moved away. I felt really lonely that year and I craved the speech and debate tournaments where I actually had people to hang out with.

Thanks! Obviously, I'm no doctor but this could be anything from an angry ulcer, IBS, or Ulcerative Colitis to full blown Colon Cancer. I did Cologuard last year and my results were fine, but I know that's not 100% at detecting the worst. Still, it's probably time I did this anyway since my tummy has been issue prone for a while now. The worst of the symptoms (a very recent change) that have been alarming me seem to correlate to rich and fatty meals followed by a long walk. Not that I've had a lot of those rich fatty meals lately, but it's a link to problems. So, we'll see.

I don't know if weird is really the feeling. That weekend I brought her home back in October so she could vote felt weird. After Thanksgiving and Christmas break, this feels a little more normal. She sleeps so much of the day that it's almost as if she isn't here. That's how it was over Christmas. I rarely see her before 3pm and many days, she has plans with friends after she wakes up. Even when she stays home, she often retreats back to her room after grabbing food. I saw her for a whopping 10 minutes yesterday when she came in to remind me to order her medicine. I guess at least she and I had a lengthy conversation on the ride home. Sam really missed her at first, but K is different after going away. I expected it, but I don't think Sam was ready for her big sister to change. The loneliness you describe reminds me a bit of how I felt whenever I was home during my college years. We moved from NJ to northern FL 6 days after I graduated from high school. I knew absolutely nobody, I was about 1000 miles away from everything familiar and was living in a college town (which felt like middle of nowhere compared to NYC metro) that really cleared out during breaks. I was so unbelievably lonely and craved human interaction outside of my family. The longer the break, the more torturous it was to be there. I took classes one summer hoping to meet other people around my age but that was a dead end. The only summer job I could ever find (since nobody needed full staffing with it being a ghost town) was as a day camp counselor at my brother's baseball coach's church school camp. So, my afternoons were spent around prepubescent boys and tween girls which just made me loathe my life even more. The only pro was I'd earned enough $ to flee town for a week to visit a guy from school for a week (who turned out to be cheating on me with his roommate's fiancé). I tried going out to what appeared to be a popular club in the university area once just to find out that it was a total meat market filled with creepy older guys and exceptionally trashy local girls. So, in a way, I'm pleased that K has at least some of a life here when she comes home from school.