I have a saved message on my phone. It's from my mom.
She called me from my brother's at about 4:30 on Saturday, November 5, 2011, asking me to call her as soon as possible. My brother ended up getting me on my cell, and I arrived at his place by 5:30.
I didn't actually get the message until some 8 hours later, after I got home from the hospital after she had passed away.
In the message, you can hear that she is in extreme pain, can barely catch her breath. This was the last phone message she ever left.
I can't bring myself to erase it, but can't bear to keep it either. Whenever I clear out a bunch of messages, I get to the bottom of the list and hear her breathless, pain-filled plea for me to call her - at least two or three times per month.
Hearing the message makes me feel bad. Would erasing it, and never hearing it again make me feel worse?