Honestly, Tiki, it's him and not you. I can't even begin to understand being Autistic, but there are plenty of people out there that do this kind of thing regardless of whether a person is Autistic or not. They seem to really like you and can be your great friend in one situation, but they won't act on that friendship outside of that particular situation. This was what college was like for me. I became very close to several people in collage, went to their homes, became roommates, and did piratically everything together. I have not heard a peep out of them even though I drop them a line to see how they're doing. I reach out, but they don't respond back. Some people are like that, and it's one of the many things Americans are known for by foreigners. We are friendly, but we don't really become friends. As hard as it is, quality over quantity is always preferable in friendships. I'm sorry that this happened to someone you thought was a good friend. It's hard and frustrating, and I'm upset that this person probably doesn't realize how much his actions are affecting you.
Just try to remember that you just came back from Disneyland and enjoyed your time with several people who wanted to be with you. Don't let this person ruin your self-worth. There is NOTHING wrong with you. I know we previously discussed this earlier, but I could not do half the things you are doing right now without losing my mind. There is so much on your plate at this moment that I have mad respect that you continue to do everything you are doing and so well. Keep up the good work, and don't let this instance affect all the good that you're doing.
I was over-reacting a bit today and being a little melodramatic about the whole thing. I found a copy of my student film a few weeks ago and I've been really wanting to show it to him but alas for some reason he's not answering his Facebook messages. I've been in a lot of patterns of situations where it seems like the person and I are really getting along and then all of a sudden they stop talking to me. Whenever something comes up that indicates that the pattern is continuing I go into panic mode and become really self-deprecating. At this point
@JokersWild,
@monkey92514, and
@MANEATINGWREATH are probably my three closest and most loyal friends, distance between us be damned. Internet or no internet.
It seems like this is just a common thing that happens in college. I wouldn't mind it so much if it weren't for the pattern being so repititious. Part of my personality and the way my mental illness makes me percieve things is to always think I'm at fault whenever something like this turns up. I'm sure there's a reasonable explanation and he wouldn't just turn a light switch in his head and start disliking me out of nowhere, I just get really paranoid about it. Ironically that paranoia unto itself is what's ruined most of my friendships.
But anyways, away from the therapy season let's get to Day Two of my trip report!
Arrived at the parks about 6:45 for Magic Mornings at Disneyland and went straight for Peter Pan. Peter Pan is essentially impossible to not wait in a slow moving 45-60 minute wait for if you're not among the first riders through its turnstiles, which I was!
Peter Pan is great for the most part, but I still prefer the old London scene with the tiny Christmas lights simulating cars and what-not. There was something really kinetic about that room which is somewhat lost with all the projection mapping. I still wish they'd take out the awkward second half and add in a large scale Skull Rock scene or something. The flight over Neverland continues to be by far the best room.
After that I hurried over to do Matterhorn. I hate Matterhorn's standby line because of how easy it is to line-jump from various points which always adds to the already long wait so it's another ride I do in the morning or not at all. Basically I love the ride's recent refurbishment and think it's honestly up there with Everest in some respects to how much build the yeti gets (And ours actually moves!
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Of course the problem with the ride is also its coolest feature from a historical point of view...The nearly 60 year old 1959 Arrow tubular steel track. Getting rid of it would literally be getting rid of what is historically the world's first modern steel coaster. Even replacing the track would kind of ruin the historical value. Of course that's what makes for the ride's infamously rough state, but I honestly don't mind the bumpiness. I do mind the freaking CRAMPED new bobsleds which for a tall guy like myself is pretty brutal on the legs! That's really the main problem with the ride in terms of discomfort. I can deal with the bumpiness in exchange for the historic legacy of the track itself.
After I got off that I took a quick ride on Storybookland which is always one of my favorites. I absolutely love the little area of Fantasyland that extends from Storybookland to Dumbo to Casey Jr. Absolutely beautiful out of the way area of the park and perfectly complimented by the music of Dumbo's organ!
Hyperspace was already an hour wait and Fastpass wasn't working yet, so I opted to do Buzz Lightyear. Fun ride which I thought I was getting better at when I was going through only to find out I only got to the second level
I can see the appeal in it, and I really wish they would have had that ride when I was a kid because I would have gone nuts for it back then! So after a quick ride on the Astro Orbiter because hey, no line! I headed back down Main Street and like a mad man decided to participate in DCA's rope drop.
The second rope drop of my day...Keeping in mind I'm running in NO sleep still. How long will I be able to go before crashing at the motel? Will my opinions on Midway Mania change after getting on it a second time? And will I be able to get a full ride on Radiator Springs Racers? All this and more in the next exciting episode!
Pardon me while I go daydream about this.
