oh Sweetie... you are carrying the weight of the whole trip on your shoulders... it'll be ok!Sorry it appears I’m not as good at pre trip reports as I am as TR’s (I’m not saying those are good either but at least I update them regularly!)
We are 5 days away (including today) from being at the airport but I’m not my usual bubbly self
All my packing is out but it’s been more of a challenge as I’m trying to consider the heat
I went shopping at the weekend but returned empty handed.
I will try again this weekend (fingers crossed) I need some shorts and cool tops but winter stuff has started to appear in the shops now..
Normally I have a pile of Disney clothes that come out every time I go to Disney - I am just concerned I need some other bits this year due to the heat/rain - it’s causing me a headache.
Also my mum has been poorly for a few months - she’s normally really active but has been suffering with a bad back to the degree where she usually walks miles and she hasn’t been out. When this holiday was booked we all joked she was fitter than any of us but that is no longer the case.
She paid for private scans which show some problems.
She has an osteopath appointment and a doctors appointment today so we’ll know more later
I’ve looked up wheelchair hire and the cost to buy one as we have serious concerns on how she will get around. We’ve found an outside Disney company that looks ok and we have one in the family we might look at to see if we could take it should it be needed.
I also think I’m piling the pressure on myself as I feel sick about it all
My mind is racing - how about if someone gets sick, how about if my mum can’t go, how about if they don’t like it!
My sister has spent so much I don’t want it ruined for her, or for her not to have a good time.
I know none of this is my responsibility - they need to make their own fun etc but it’s all getting to me
I’m sure after today when mum gets the all clear and we know what provisions we need to make for her (fingers crossed) and once my nephew comes to me tonight with his packing - and his excitement I might feel better but right now i don’t have that pixie dust anywhere near me
What is happening to me?
Sorry to put a downer on anyone’s day I don’t mean to I just think i need to talk (so to speak) as I bottle all these feeling up.