Right now, the anxiety I would go through after getting jabbed is not worth it for me… I prefer masks currently.
soooo I stay home
How much anxiety does your DH feel from worrying he will bring COVID home to you?
How much anxiety will you feel when you get COVID, wondering if you will be the one with an adverse reaction?
How much guilt will your family members feel when you get COVID wondering who brought it home?
If you have a bad case, how much anxiety will your family feel wondering if you will recover and how long it will take?
How much anxiety will you feel if you get long-COVID? Your DH who would have to care for you, your kids that would have to help?
You see, you aren't avoiding anxiety by not getting the shot. Only delaying anxiety; and transferring anxiety onto someone in your family. Delaying for you. Both for your DH, your kids. Your friends and family who are missing you.
Plus, the anxiety they could end up experiencing could be far worse. Because you could be the one that is sedated and feeling no anxiety at all, while they wonder what will happen to Mom.
If your anxiety is so bad that you would rather everyone else around you feel anxiety, for an undetermined amount of time, and potentially far worse depending on the outcome, then you need a professional therapist. And I say that with all the empathy in the world, because I bet this is not the only thing you are feeling anxiety about in your life. Its preventing you, your DH and your kids from living your best lives.
If you get the shot, how long do you really think you will feel anxious? 1-3 days, like the rest of us wondering if we're going to have something more than sore arm? 6 weeks, because that's what the maximum time for vax related symptoms to appear? Somewhere in between? Either way, it comes with an expiration date. Not the undetermined amount you've chosen for your family. I'm sure everyone says they're fine, because they want Mom to be fine. They're not. All of your family is missing something, and your choice means they have to miss it longer. Talk to them honestly about what they miss and how missing it makes them feel. Don't settle for the answer "it's fine." You're a Mom, you know there's something else there.
And don't let your inside voice say, "You aren't going to get COVID." You will. Maybe not Delta, but this winter, or next winter, or the winter after that. Are you going to stay at home that long? You really think doing that isn't causing anxiety to someone that you love?
So the anxiety you say "isn't worth it." I guarantee you it is, but you, your DH and kids won't be able to see how much it was worth it until you get to the other side.