Ravenclaw78
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I take Klonopin, which is similar to Xanax. Unfortunately, a whole pill pretty much puts me to sleep for 3 hours, so I have to do a half-dose. That works pretty much like you describe, which is enough for most situations, but for some situations it's insufficient (and sometimes I can't medicate, like when I am going to need to drive afterward). Burying myself in a phone does help, to a point, so I often do use that to tune out the rest of the world, but the darndest thing about being a parent is that my kid (not to mention my wife, though she understands) wants and needs attention too.I haven't been diagnosed with anything (when I was a kid in the 70's, the only things people were diagnosed with were scoliosis and lice. I got scoliosis LOL.) But I recently discovered a very small dose of alprazolam (xanax) will make me function more "normally" in stressful situations. (It was prescribed to help me shut the brain off to go to sleep at night, and then kind of expanded from there.) ETA: I couldn't admit "anxiety" and "stress" were real things until about 3 years ago.
But I can get panicky if I feel like I can't get out of a certain place easily. Standing in line at the beginning of the Peter Pan queue is cool. Getting stuck in the relatively small, dark space almost to the boats on Pirates (I think there are steps or a slope?) because the ride goes down for ten minutes, I have to avoid getting into my head or I will feel like just running out of there.
I've found my phone to be a Godsend. I can just play solitaire or chat here, and it takes me almost out of that situation temporarily. (Solitaire works better.) Does that help you at all? I also do this while standing on a crowded bus back to the hotel. My husband knows if I'm playing solitaire, I'm stressed lol.
I don't really know why lines in particular are a problem for me, except to the extent that I can feel trapped in them, and I have plenty of other triggers too. I'm usually good even unmedicated in "normal" lines like grocery stores as long as everything is running relatively smoothly, but a theme park is an entirely different animal. I can do a pretty good impression of a neurotypical guest for 15-20 minutes in a line, maybe 30 or even 45 minutes if it's a comfortable temperature without loud music or weird lighting and nobody's being a jerk, but past that point (if the meds aren't helping enough and I don't have the Niffler or some other sensory comfort or a fidget toy) my fight-or-flight instincts kick into overdrive and I either have to leave the line or I start getting increasingly agitated and ultimately aggressive toward anyone in the vicinity that my brain interprets as a potential threat. We use DAS or day-of Fastpasses for rides with wait times longer than 30 minutes that we can't get Fastpasses for ahead of time, treat <20 minute lines as walk-ons, and play 20-30 minute lines by ear.