Hmmn ... I don't think trying to defend myself is the proper way to go here. So would you settle for an explanation?
20+ years ago, I was in a very bad place. I couldn't get work as a writer. I couldn't provide for my wife and child. My marriage was imploding. Which is why Michelle was going to take our daughter 6000 miles away back to her family in Hawaii. And given the extremely tough financial straits we were in at that time ... It was highly doubtful that I'd ever get to see Alice again.
So during this bleak, dark period, I did some incredibly stupid, self destructive things because I felt like such a failure as a husband and a father. To be honest, I guess I was looking to get caught because I wanted to be punished. Which explains the info that got posted on this forum earlier tonight.
Now let me tell you the weird part: Being sent to the Orange County lock-up for 49 days was honestly the best thing that could have ever happened to me. It pulled me out of that self destructive spiral. It gave me time to get some real perspective on who I was and what I'd been doing. More to the point, in between when I was initially detained and when I finally did my time was when I first met Nancy. She came into my life when I was at my absolute lowest (Michelle had taken Alice back to Hawaii by then). And she honestly helped me turn this whole horrible situation around. If it wasn't for her, I wouldn't have the life that I have today. Or the career that I have. Or the close relationship that I now enjoy with my daughter.
So again -- in a weird sort of way -- whoever it is who actually posted this info online, thank you. This issue has been hanging over my head for 20+ years at this point. And given the way the Web works, I'm honestly kind of surprised that it took this long for this skeleton to finally come out of the closet.
But know this: That's not the man I am now. I freely admit that this is something that I did in the past. But I paid my debt to society and have worked hard since then to turn my life & reputation around.
And that's pretty much all I have to say. Other than the people who knew me back during my self-destructive-dumb-***-in-Orlando days who are still my friends today are the folks that I absolutely treasure.