working out for Disney

[HouCuseChickie]

A little bit more...

I had seen this little park and trail area along the river near our hotel for this part of the trip, so we decided to stop. Nothing majorly exciting yet still pretty.


I felt like I hadn't gotten in enough walking that day, so I went on another walk once we got to the fields. This was the bridge that led me back to the fields upon my return.


It wouldn't be softball without softball sunsets. At least there was a clear view at this point. We had dust blow up for a while that made it hard to see anything.


More to come.

 

[Songbird76]

For that first trip, I believe the place we stayed was in Keystone. We stayed in Rapid City the last time we visited. Yeah, I would not be ok with that setup in Sturgis. It seems like it's really designed for people attending the annual bike rally who are looking for more of a social/community lodging environment. i.e. that walk to the facilities is part of the festival experience. Definitely not what you'd want on a standard vacation.

It's funny...I'm not a big broccoli fan but I really enjoy cauliflower. I'll eat both but I do have my preferences. Hollandaise sauce has made asparagus more palatable to our entire family. I can eat it plain.

Yeah, we stayed at the campground the week before rally started, and that was part of the problem. I purposely avoided rally, but people do start trickling in a bit early, and a lot of the better places are already booked full, and everyone raises their prices. I don't think it was worth the price we paid considering there was no private bathroom, and the cabin really was just the two beds and that's pretty much all that fit. But that's kind of what you get during rally. I made the plans avoiding Sturgis Rally, when everything all the way out to Gillette is booked, and also to avoid National High School Finals Rodeo, which is the same way...people book places all the way into South Dakota, etc. And to avoid Cheyenne Frontier Days in Cheyenne, because then everything in the Laramie/Cheyenne area is packed. And driving during any of those events is crazy!! I don't want to be anywhere near there during those events.

A won't eat any veggies except spinach in lasagna or Peas in Rendang. E and I are big veggie people...we make up for what he won't eat. DH will eat most veggies, but he can take them or leave them. If we make them, he will usually eat them, but he won't go out of his way to make them, and he won't ask for them. If I ask him what he wants, he'll generally say "I don't necessarily need a vegetable." while E and I will both say "I want something with vegetables!" But I am not much for sauces usually. I DO like a cheese sauce on broccoli sometimes, but I never make that myself. DH makes a sauce for with cauliflower, but I won't eat the sauce. We made spaghetti tonight and it was so good! We roasted some tomatoes from E's garden as well as some from the store because she didn't have enough in her garden, and some red pepper, garlic, and onion, then pureed it. So it was pretty vegetable rich. And we used whole grain pasta, so it was a bit healthier than standard pasta. We COULD make our own pasta, but it takes such a long time. And A requested Rendang for tomorrow, and while he eats his with rice, we do wok-sauted veggies instead, so low carb, lots of veggies. So we usually do pretty well on that stuff at home if either E or I cook. But DH doesn't usually cook, and when he does, he tends to do frozen pizzas, ordering in, or something that doesn't require much work and isn't very healthy.

 

[Songbird76]

Sam Loveland trail but different day. I had more time and made it pretty close to the foothills.
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This was the day we had a morning free and headed up to Horsetooth Reservoir in Fort Collins. My parents were with us but my dad has since decided that he will no longer be visiting spots like this. He's had a few recent falls and saw that their old dr died on unpaved area like this due to a spill. Thankfully, his only fall this trip occurred on pavement and wound up to be fairly minor. Still, it's a pretty spot and I had some fun climbing on the rocks. Also got some great bird recordings on Merlin.
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...much more to come.

Did you travel on 287? That's such a beautiful drive with the mountains. I miss mountains. My brother and his husband own a restaurant in the Snowies...well, technically on the way up to the snowies. It's in Centennial, which is right on the road that leads up into the mountains. When we visited Wyoming in 2022, we went for breakfast at their restaurant, and then we drove up to Lake Marie and Mirror Lake and hiked around a bit. So beautiful!! But that whole area from Southern Wyoming down into Colorado is gorgeous! I miss that so much!! Thank you for sharing your pictures!

 

[Sans Souci]

Hello-

Checking in with another treadmill and core workout. It was boring and brutal. I was going to go for a walk, but my left sinus is killing me. My upper teeth, my throat, my cheek and eye all hurt. I felt like this over the weekend and thought I was developing a sinus infection, but the humidity went down and I felt better. But it's been creeping back up again. I'm just going to chill, drink lots of water and take something for my sinus.

I started this post earlier in the day and got side tracked by stuff.

I was on my walk yesterday and all of the sudden, I saw a fawn running down the street. He was alone and he looked panicked. He was moving his head back and forth like he was looking for something. He was in front of a wooded area where I have seen deer, so I thought maybe he was going to go in there to find his family. I saw him again when I was coming back from my walk, in a different place. He looked scared. We made eye contact and I thought about going over to him, but I thought, "What can I realistically do?" I can't take him around to help him look for his family, so I walked away. (Plus, he likely would have run away if I moved towards him and we were near the street.) But I started crying like an idiot. He looked so scared and that upset me. I hope he found his family, because I have seen a lot of fawns on the side of the road. They can be a nuisance, but that doesn't mean I want them to come to harm.

 

[Songbird76]

Hello-

Checking in with another treadmill and core workout. It was boring and brutal. I was going to go for a walk, but my left sinus is killing me. My upper teeth, my throat, my cheek and eye all hurt. I felt like this over the weekend and thought I was developing a sinus infection, but the humidity went down and I felt better. But it's been creeping back up again. I'm just going to chill, drink lots of water and take something for my sinus.

I started this post earlier in the day and got side tracked by stuff.

I was on my walk yesterday and all of the sudden, I saw a fawn running down the street. He was alone and he looked panicked. He was moving his head back and forth like he was looking for something. He was in front of a wooded area where I have seen deer, so I thought maybe he was going to go in there to find his family. I saw him again when I was coming back from my walk, in a different place. He looked scared. We made eye contact and I thought about going over to him, but I thought, "What can I realistically do?" I can't take him around to help him look for his family, so I walked away. (Plus, he likely would have run away if I moved towards him and we were near the street.) But I started crying like an idiot. He looked so scared and that upset me. I hope he found his family, because I have seen a lot of fawns on the side of the road. They can be a nuisance, but that doesn't mean I want them to come to harm.

Oh that's so sad...I hope he found his family and that his mother wasn't hit or something, being close to a road.

About the sinuses, could you use some nasal spray and maybe a heating pad to release some of the pressure? Sinus pain is brutal. I used to get sinus infections all the time that would then move down into my chest, and they won't give you antibiotics for that here, so I'd end up with bronchitis, and eventually also an ear infection and THEN they would finally give me antibiotics. My doctor says sinus infections are viral and antibiotics won't help, but I know that's not always true. They can be either bacterial OR viral...you have to do a culture to see if it's bacterial, but he just wouldn't help me. I had a really bad case for 4 months when I was pregnant with E, and I only got antibiotics after I had been there several times and he had an intern working with him and she's the one who saw me that final time. She asked me what I had tried and how long I had had it. I told her I used nasal spray, steam, decongestants, pain relievers, cough syrup. So she asked the doctor if she could try an antibiotic for me, and within a week it was gone. If he'd have just listened to me the FIRST time I went to see him, I wouldn't have had to be miserable for 4 months.

 

[HouCuseChickie]

Did you travel on 287? That's such a beautiful drive with the mountains. I miss mountains. My brother and his husband own a restaurant in the Snowies...well, technically on the way up to the snowies. It's in Centennial, which is right on the road that leads up into the mountains. When we visited Wyoming in 2022, we went for breakfast at their restaurant, and then we drove up to Lake Marie and Mirror Lake and hiked around a bit. So beautiful!! But that whole area from Southern Wyoming down into Colorado is gorgeous! I miss that so much!! Thank you for sharing your pictures!

I had to go back to the map. So, I apparently did get onto 287 at various points, but it was the more populated portions of Fort Collins. In fact, the gym location I was frequenting during that part of the trip was on 287. Sadly, I did not get a ton of exploration time when we were in CO, so I was happy with whatever pretty stuff I did get to see.

 

[HouCuseChickie]

This was our last day in Fort Collins. Sam had a camp at Colorado State. We'd be heading to the Denver area afterwards and also changing hotels. Our first hotel was not the greatest. Definitely better than @Songbird76 's lodging, but the sad excuse for a gym was tethered to the laundry room and had really limited hours (which we disregarded). I got in my walking on campus that day.


This bar cracked me up. No name on the sign, just a pic of a marmot. It also coincided with me passing some really smelly people standing in a parking lot and praying to the mountains.


This was the next hotel room. I was so happy to have a full kitchen.


I took pics from nearly every gym I visited during travels this summer.


This is how close our hotel was to downtown Denver.


David found this place for dinner. Supposedly famous for fried chicken...and yet none of us ordered any! LOL


Prairie dog town right outside of the restaurant.

 

[HouCuseChickie]

We had a big organizational workout in front of coaches the following morning. Then Sam and David went to an academic camp for her later that day. My parents and I ended up at the Rocky Mountain Arsenal National Wildlife Refuge.

I just love magpies!


Sam also ended up doing really well at the camp and received a special invitation to participate in an all-star game. Definitely a sports highlight for the trip.


Next day we were playing in Aurora. All of the CO ballfields backed on trails. This trail was linked into the front range trail. It was getting a lot more bike than foot traffic and there was zero shade, but it did the job.

 

[HouCuseChickie]

I think this is now July 2nd. We had a day off. David wound up taking the car to take Sam to go rafting in Idaho Springs... something that was sprung on me last minute. I had booked entry into RMNP, so I was really mad. I ended up hanging back and walking into downtown to hit the gym.


Next day, July 3rd...we were playing at different fields with different nice trails...


We went out for food after and I got the most ridiculous presentation of chicken lettuce wraps for my lunch.


I believe this is now July 4th. The fields also had trails but not the best part of town. The trails were pretty but a lot of homelessness along the way.


We went out for dinner with the team that night. David got a ridiculous drink. We saw fireworks on our drive home, but didn't really watch any particular show. The best was probably at the Rockies' stadium.



...more CO to come, as well as GA and CA.

 

[HouCuseChickie]

Time got away from me. I'll hopefully share more pics later on today...but for now, a fitness update.

I weighed in on Saturday, after my break day walk but before my birthday eating. I'm down another 2 pounds. I then proceeded to eat ALL the things after a few hours with softball stuff. We went out for Mexican for lunch and I had queso flameado con chorizo as well as an enchilada trio. Surprisingly, I did not inhale the chips and salsa. For a snack, I ate some of the Almond Joys we bought to go on my cake and had some of Sam's leftover pizza (not worth it). For dinner, I made MY mac and cheese and then we had a coconut cake topped in Almond Joys. I made so much mac that I froze a full casserole dish and am hoping to have some more on a holiday. My tummy is still mad at me, but I got back on track on Sunday. I went about 7.5 miles yesterday and then hit the gym yesterday afternoon for 30 minutes on the elliptical and a full leg workout.

Today, I got out early and put in a little over 4 miles on the trails in my new weighted vest (bday gift from my parents). I saw a lot of recs to go for something around 10-12 lbs but that seemed so light and my friend wears a 25 lb one (she is over 6' tall though), so they got me a 25 lb vest. Let me just say that it is not the easiest thing to put on, and towards the end, I could really feel it in my shoulders. I definitely sweat more but I didn't feel it under the vest, so the extra didn't bother me. My pace was also comparable to without, so no slowing me down. I don't think I'd use it for more than 5 miles, but I could definitely feel myself working harder. So, hopefully it'll show some dividends as I track my progress.

Speaking of fitness, goals, and weight loss...David and I are at our next phase of battling on the matter. We had our beefs during travel this summer, trying to balance out my getting to the gym and schedules. I was hoping it was just that, but apparently, he's still not happy that I'm trying to get myself back to a healthy place. I'll spare you the novel but he got on my case yesterday saying that I looked just fine before all of this and my weight wasn't nearly as bad as I say it was. I explained to him (again) all of the issues that the excess weight had created and he just shrugged it off, like I was still in this for superficial reasons and my quality of life/health frustrations were irrelevant. He's harping on how I am more fun when I'm not being mindful of all of this. The reality is that I am still 24 pounds heavier than I was before I let myself go a few years ago...and he had no beef with me then. I have a lot of thoughts on why he's being like this, but he'd never admit it and it's starting to really bother me. We had a number of other fights and issues during travel and this is just compounding these matters. Either way, I will not be halting any of this simply because he doesn't see the value in me getting and keeping my health on track.

 

[ajrwdwgirl]

Time got away from me. I'll hopefully share more pics later on today...but for now, a fitness update.

I weighed in on Saturday, after my break day walk but before my birthday eating. I'm down another 2 pounds. I then proceeded to eat ALL the things after a few hours with softball stuff. We went out for Mexican for lunch and I had queso flameado con chorizo as well as an enchilada trio. Surprisingly, I did not inhale the chips and salsa. For a snack, I ate some of the Almond Joys we bought to go on my cake and had some of Sam's leftover pizza (not worth it). For dinner, I made MY mac and cheese and then we had a coconut cake topped in Almond Joys. I made so much mac that I froze a full casserole dish and am hoping to have some more on a holiday. My tummy is still mad at me, but I got back on track on Sunday. I went about 7.5 miles yesterday and then hit the gym yesterday afternoon for 30 minutes on the elliptical and a full leg workout.

Today, I got out early and put in a little over 4 miles on the trails in my new weighted vest (bday gift from my parents). I saw a lot of recs to go for something around 10-12 lbs but that seemed so light and my friend wears a 25 lb one (she is over 6' tall though), so they got me a 25 lb vest. Let me just say that it is not the easiest thing to put on, and towards the end, I could really feel it in my shoulders. I definitely sweat more but I didn't feel it under the vest, so the extra didn't bother me. My pace was also comparable to without, so no slowing me down. I don't think I'd use it for more than 5 miles, but I could definitely feel myself working harder. So, hopefully it'll show some dividends as I track my progress.

Speaking of fitness, goals, and weight loss...David and I are at our next phase of battling on the matter. We had our beefs during travel this summer, trying to balance out my getting to the gym and schedules. I was hoping it was just that, but apparently, he's still not happy that I'm trying to get myself back to a healthy place. I'll spare you the novel but he got on my case yesterday saying that I looked just fine before all of this and my weight wasn't nearly as bad as I say it was. I explained to him (again) all of the issues that the excess weight had created and he just shrugged it off, like I was still in this for superficial reasons and my quality of life/health frustrations were irrelevant. He's harping on how I am more fun when I'm not being mindful of all of this. The reality is that I am still 24 pounds heavier than I was before I let myself go a few years ago...and he had no beef with me then. I have a lot of thoughts on why he's being like this, but he'd never admit it and it's starting to really bother me. We had a number of other fights and issues during travel and this is just compounding these matters. Either way, I will not be halting any of this simply because he doesn't see the value in me getting and keeping my health on track.

It sounds like you are doing a fabulous job of getting on track, it is inspiring to me to see you so dedicated to it. I like how you are being mindful of your husband's thoughts but determined to stay true to your goals and do what is best for you and your health.

 

[HouCuseChickie]

It sounds like you are doing a fabulous job of getting on track, it is inspiring to me to see you so dedicated to it. I like how you are being mindful of your husband's thoughts but determined to stay true to your goals and do what is best for you and your health.

Thank you! It's definitely not easy and the things with him are frustrating; however, the short and long term progress in addition to just feeling so much better tells me that it's worth it.

 

[Songbird76]

Time got away from me. I'll hopefully share more pics later on today...but for now, a fitness update.

I weighed in on Saturday, after my break day walk but before my birthday eating. I'm down another 2 pounds. I then proceeded to eat ALL the things after a few hours with softball stuff. We went out for Mexican for lunch and I had queso flameado con chorizo as well as an enchilada trio. Surprisingly, I did not inhale the chips and salsa. For a snack, I ate some of the Almond Joys we bought to go on my cake and had some of Sam's leftover pizza (not worth it). For dinner, I made MY mac and cheese and then we had a coconut cake topped in Almond Joys. I made so much mac that I froze a full casserole dish and am hoping to have some more on a holiday. My tummy is still mad at me, but I got back on track on Sunday. I went about 7.5 miles yesterday and then hit the gym yesterday afternoon for 30 minutes on the elliptical and a full leg workout.

Today, I got out early and put in a little over 4 miles on the trails in my new weighted vest (bday gift from my parents). I saw a lot of recs to go for something around 10-12 lbs but that seemed so light and my friend wears a 25 lb one (she is over 6' tall though), so they got me a 25 lb vest. Let me just say that it is not the easiest thing to put on, and towards the end, I could really feel it in my shoulders. I definitely sweat more but I didn't feel it under the vest, so the extra didn't bother me. My pace was also comparable to without, so no slowing me down. I don't think I'd use it for more than 5 miles, but I could definitely feel myself working harder. So, hopefully it'll show some dividends as I track my progress.

Speaking of fitness, goals, and weight loss...David and I are at our next phase of battling on the matter. We had our beefs during travel this summer, trying to balance out my getting to the gym and schedules. I was hoping it was just that, but apparently, he's still not happy that I'm trying to get myself back to a healthy place. I'll spare you the novel but he got on my case yesterday saying that I looked just fine before all of this and my weight wasn't nearly as bad as I say it was. I explained to him (again) all of the issues that the excess weight had created and he just shrugged it off, like I was still in this for superficial reasons and my quality of life/health frustrations were irrelevant. He's harping on how I am more fun when I'm not being mindful of all of this. The reality is that I am still 24 pounds heavier than I was before I let myself go a few years ago...and he had no beef with me then. I have a lot of thoughts on why he's being like this, but he'd never admit it and it's starting to really bother me. We had a number of other fights and issues during travel and this is just compounding these matters. Either way, I will not be halting any of this simply because he doesn't see the value in me getting and keeping my health on track.

Good for you getting yourself healthy again!

Could he be insecure that you won't want to stay with him once you are back to where you were before? Like, once you are thinner, other men might notice and he is thinking you might find someone you find more attractive, and he doesn't want to do the work to get himself in shape? I've heard of men who will sabatage their wife, because they don't want her to be attractive to other men. And you did mention that you used to be very popular. It sounds like either he's insecure, or that he's jealous that you are getting more healthy and he's not and he's trying to keep you on his level. Hopefully he'll snap out of it.

 

[HouCuseChickie]

Good for you getting yourself healthy again!

Could he be insecure that you won't want to stay with him once you are back to where you were before? Like, once you are thinner, other men might notice and he is thinking you might find someone you find more attractive, and he doesn't want to do the work to get himself in shape? I've heard of men who will sabatage their wife, because they don't want her to be attractive to other men. And you did mention that you used to be very popular. It sounds like either he's insecure, or that he's jealous that you are getting more healthy and he's not and he's trying to keep you on his level. Hopefully he'll snap out of it.

Certainly trying! I'm still recovering from my birthday. I weighed myself a few days later just for an honest dose of reality. All of the fitness gurus say that one day or even a few bad ones won't totally wreck you but I was up 5lbs and I could see it. I know that's in the range of standard fluctuations, but I haven't been fluctuating that much over these months. So, that one day definitely threw me off more than anything while I was on the road. I weighed in again today just to see if being back on my normal routine was working and now I'm only 2 lbs above my most recent low last Saturday morning. That's a more normal fluctuation.

As for him...who the heck knows. I thought it might be insecurity at first but I really don't think that's it. He was very popular at one point too. In fact, we're pretty certain he was one of the ultra popular bully athlete guys in school. He claims nobody was ever bullied in his school but that's usually the hallmark of being the one doing the bullying. At the very least, he is painfully blunt to the point that he's driven off pretty much all of our friends over the years. I even had friends leave me or refuse to do stuff with both of us because they couldn't handle hanging out with his personality. I've had to keep an eye out with softball because he's already created a few tense relationships with his personality and lack of awareness about what is and isn't offensive/appropriate. He's always had the "if you're offended, that's a YOU problem" mentality. As for insecurities...When we were dating, and even in the early stages of our marriage, he never acted threatened by other men approaching me. He even welcomed it if those men wanted to buy me drinks and save us some money. In fact, the only thing that has ever bugged him over the years is if I wear something more revealing... and even that's off because it's really silly little things. Like a pair of leggings that may be a tad see through when I bend/squat or a top with tiny sheer panels in areas around my waist and shoulders. In other words, more obviously provocative clothing was never a problem. Short skirts, cleavage, tight fitting, bare midriff, you name it... fine. Seriously, men used to sit down with me when we were out at bars, trying to steal me, while he was 10 feet away playing games and he couldn't care less. Even when we were out in CA last month I had another example occur. We were out at dinner one night but at three separate tables. I was a few tables away with another mom and he didn't bat an eyelash even though this man from another group spent the entire meal popping by to chat with me...eventually calling me beautiful, among other things. He just keeps harping on how I'm no longer fun. It's as if he'd rather have me physically and mentally miserable if it means having a drinking and eating buddy in me. Personally, I'm hitting a point where my patience is running insanely thin with all of it. He's been so indifferent about me that he's failing to pay attention to all sorts of things. Like the day in CA where he took my stuff out of the wagon to make room for his things and just left my stuff behind on the pavement, not caring or really paying attention because it wasn't his stuff. Thankfully, it wasn't taken because I had my wallet, car keys, jewelry, etc. in it. It was sitting there while we were on the nearby beach for at least an hour before I discovered what he'd done. It's a vagrant infested garage and it was just sitting there in the open behind the truck where he left it. Add in that his not caring about what anyone thinks has led to him turning into a complete slob and I'm just at a breaking point being hit with his dissatisfaction with my habits for betterment. I made an interesting observation with some of it the other week. There's a man in our softball world that I think has developed an interest in me over the last few months. He is a big guy, yet I see some real appeal there. That's critical because clearly it's not some extra weight that's making me sour at home. Some may just be that new interest is flattering, but I think it's because he's not going around in stained, dirty (food crusted on the front), ripped, etc. clothing. Sorry...long rant and maybe TMI but I'm just feeling like I'm approaching a breaking point and his preference for me being in line with his slovenly approach to everything vs. happy and healthy has me doing a lot of soul searching these days.

 

[ajrwdwgirl]

Certainly trying! I'm still recovering from my birthday. I weighed myself a few days later just for an honest dose of reality. All of the fitness gurus say that one day or even a few bad ones won't totally wreck you but I was up 5lbs and I could see it. I know that's in the range of standard fluctuations, but I haven't been fluctuating that much over these months. So, that one day definitely threw me off more than anything while I was on the road. I weighed in again today just to see if being back on my normal routine was working and now I'm only 2 lbs above my most recent low last Saturday morning. That's a more normal fluctuation.

As for him...who the heck knows. I thought it might be insecurity at first but I really don't think that's it. He was very popular at one point too. In fact, we're pretty certain he was one of the ultra popular bully athlete guys in school. He claims nobody was ever bullied in his school but that's usually the hallmark of being the one doing the bullying. At the very least, he is painfully blunt to the point that he's driven off pretty much all of our friends over the years. I even had friends leave me or refuse to do stuff with both of us because they couldn't handle hanging out with his personality. I've had to keep an eye out with softball because he's already created a few tense relationships with his personality and lack of awareness about what is and isn't offensive/appropriate. He's always had the "if you're offended, that's a YOU problem" mentality. As for insecurities...When we were dating, and even in the early stages of our marriage, he never acted threatened by other men approaching me. He even welcomed it if those men wanted to buy me drinks and save us some money. In fact, the only thing that has ever bugged him over the years is if I wear something more revealing... and even that's off because it's really silly little things. Like a pair of leggings that may be a tad see through when I bend/squat or a top with tiny sheer panels in areas around my waist and shoulders. In other words, more obviously provocative clothing was never a problem. Short skirts, cleavage, tight fitting, bare midriff, you name it... fine. Seriously, men used to sit down with me when we were out at bars, trying to steal me, while he was 10 feet away playing games and he couldn't care less. Even when we were out in CA last month I had another example occur. We were out at dinner one night but at three separate tables. I was a few tables away with another mom and he didn't bat an eyelash even though this man from another group spent the entire meal popping by to chat with me...eventually calling me beautiful, among other things. He just keeps harping on how I'm no longer fun. It's as if he'd rather have me physically and mentally miserable if it means having a drinking and eating buddy in me. Personally, I'm hitting a point where my patience is running insanely thin with all of it. He's been so indifferent about me that he's failing to pay attention to all sorts of things. Like the day in CA where he took my stuff out of the wagon to make room for his things and just left my stuff behind on the pavement, not caring or really paying attention because it wasn't his stuff. Thankfully, it wasn't taken because I had my wallet, car keys, jewelry, etc. in it. It was sitting there while we were on the nearby beach for at least an hour before I discovered what he'd done. It's a vagrant infested garage and it was just sitting there in the open behind the truck where he left it. Add in that his not caring about what anyone thinks has led to him turning into a complete slob and I'm just at a breaking point being hit with his dissatisfaction with my habits for betterment. I made an interesting observation with some of it the other week. There's a man in our softball world that I think has developed an interest in me over the last few months. He is a big guy, yet I see some real appeal there. That's critical because clearly it's not some extra weight that's making me sour at home. Some may just be that new interest is flattering, but I think it's because he's not going around in stained, dirty (food crusted on the front), ripped, etc. clothing. Sorry...long rant and maybe TMI but I'm just feeling like I'm approaching a breaking point and his preference for me being in line with his slovenly approach to everything vs. happy and healthy has me doing a lot of soul searching these days.

Sounds like you need a hug.

Again though, it sounds as if you are doing a great job of keeping track of your goals and working for what will make you happy. Even though you might have had a little set back lately, it doesn't sound it is discouraging to you. Stay strong!

 

[HouCuseChickie]

Sounds like you need a hug.

Again though, it sounds as if you are doing a great job of keeping track of your goals and working for what will make you happy. Even though you might have had a little set back lately, it doesn't sound it is discouraging to you. Stay strong!

Thank you! I know, in the end, I am doing what's good for me but it's also so frustrating. Hopefully things will improve.