working out for Disney

[HouCuseChickie]

I hate it when men do that! It's so creeptastic! Especially when a woman politely says no. I'm grateful it doesn't happen to me much anymore now that I'm older, but when I was in my late twenties/early thirties, it was awful. And saying you are married seems to be like a code word for them to escalate, like it's a challenge or something. I had one guy ask me, "but are you HAPPILY married?" Take a hint! I'm not interested!

Good luck with the shopping. The last minute stuff is the worst, isn't it? You can never find exactly what you want and it feels like it takes forever and you start to feel rushed. It's just no fun! I hope you find something easily!

On one hand, I'm the kind of person that does like the compliments and attention, but there is a time and place. His general demeanor and way he said it would have actually been really flattering and more of an ego boost if he said it in the supermarket in passing or even in the right setting in the gym. Approaching a single female on her own out on a trail is mega creepy. It's like hitting on me while I'm pumping gas. Some situations are just much creepier than others.

Thankfully we found something. Amazon came to the rescue with next day delivery on her blazer and bathing suit. They are staying at a Kalahari (indoor water park) and she was going to need something new for summer anyway, so I figured why not? We found dress pants on the clearance rack of TJ Maxx for $12, so that's a win.

 

[Sans Souci]

When you say you feel ligaments moving over your hip bones, what does that feel like? I get this sort of popping feeling sometimes with certain movements, like it was out of alignment and then something shifted and popped into place.

I also noticed yesterday with the floor work that I can lift one leg if I lie on my back, but I can not lift both at the same time. It hurts my tail bone. Almost like if I were lying on a marble. Like... It presses on something in my tailbone and I'm not really lying flat.

It feels like something is out of alignment. It's not painful, but it feels off. I have to kick and shake \ my leg forward for things to "feel normal." I do feel it immediately when everything is back where it should be.

The moves you've described are the ones that make my ligaments come out of alignment. Doing a lot of yoga does it, too.

 

[Sans Souci]

I liked the first White Lotus and was a little on the fence with the 2nd. Maybe I'll just stop, it doesn't sound like I will be missing much.

I don't blame you. I had no idea this situation was in this season and I probably wouldn't have watched it if I'd known. I thought the second was better than the third. I felt like the flow and writing were tight. Even though I liked the 3rd season, it felt slow and meandered a bit. The cast was a lot larger in this season, so I think a lot of time was spent getting everyone's back stories and relationship dynamics in place before it just took off into crazy town.

 

[Sans Souci]

I'm using a totally plain one that just dissolves in liquid. The brand is called Live Conscious. I started researching options when I saw people raving about Spoiled Child for collagen but it looks like they use sucralose and it's all flavored. This stuff that I've been using ranked #1 on several lists. My hair is noticeably thicker and the knee pains I was experiencing are gone (which tend to come the more I walk and aren't really weight related). So, I'm going to credit the collagen.

I use Vital Proteins and that's only because I get a 1.5 lb cylinder for $27 at Costco. That's hard to beat per ounce. If I could find a better deal, I'd bite, regardless of brand. lol

 

[Sans Souci]

Hello-

Checking in with a back and chest workout. I went out for a walk, too.

My husband wants to visit his family this summer. I'm thinking of staying behind. I don't want people being funny with me and acing like I am the avatar for an entire nation. I also don't want my phone and other devices searched on return. I'm a very boring person with a very mundane life, but at the same time, it's nobody's business. I don't know, I'll think about it.

I've been making overnight oats for breakfast. My base is rolled oats, chia seeds, a little dark brown sugar, toasted coconut almond milk, cinnamon and a bit of salt. I've been topping it with tahini and chopped dates, but today I tried tahini and shredded coconut, because I was too lazy too chop up dates. It was so good. I'm thinking of toasting the oats before I mix them up, because they do taste "raw."

 

[HouCuseChickie]

I use Vital Proteins and that's only because I get a 1.5 lb cylinder for $27 at Costco. That's hard to beat per ounce. If I could find a better deal, I'd bite, regardless of brand. lol

That is the other one I see coming out on top on some lists. That's also one heck of a price! I may consider it if David can find it at our local Costco but it'll be at least another month and a half before I'll need it. I also worry about changing since I think I'm seeing results. I went into work today and pretty much everyone that saw me had something to say about my hair. Not that I looked like I was balding or anything, but I guess the fullness and rapid growth was really noticeable.

 

[Songbird76]

Hello-

Checking in with a back and chest workout. I went out for a walk, too.

My husband wants to visit his family this summer. I'm thinking of staying behind. I don't want people being funny with me and acing like I am the avatar for an entire nation. I also don't want my phone and other devices searched on return. I'm a very boring person with a very mundane life, but at the same time, it's nobody's business. I don't know, I'll think about it.

I've been making overnight oats for breakfast. My base is rolled oats, chia seeds, a little dark brown sugar, toasted coconut almond milk, cinnamon and a bit of salt. I've been topping it with tahini and chopped dates, but today I tried tahini and shredded coconut, because I was too lazy too chop up dates. It was so good. I'm thinking of toasting the oats before I mix them up, because they do taste "raw."

Yeah, living abroad, people always want to know what I think about stuff that's going on in the US. I would love to go to the US for vacation, but it's not safe right now. US citizens are sometimes being detained if they have things on their phone that immigration officers don't like, and I just saw that a few US citizens who live abroad are having their passport renewals denied, too. Mine is valid until 2029, so I shouldn't need to renew it yet, but I don't want them to go through my phone and read private conversations, either. There would be nothing dangerous or illegal, but very critical, and that seems to be what is flagging detainment. Not to mention my kids are not US citizens. Neither of them have a US passport, nor does my husband obviously, but they could also be detained for no reason or turned away at the border. It's not a risk any of us are willing to take for a vacation.

 

[Songbird76]

I rode my bike for about 45 minutes this morning, and then came home and did a sweating with the oldies workout. I don't ride my bike very fast because it hurts my knee, but it gave me some exercise other than walking.

I might go to the centrum later if E is feeling up to it, but I don't know. She just had her last exam for this round of classes, in organic chemistry two. I think she only has one more round of classes before Summer break, but in any case, she had to get up at 5 this morning to be in Wageningen on time for her test, so I'm sure she's tired and might not want to go out yet. She might use this week to prepare for this round of classes coming up...I think it's Thermo Dynamics maybe.

 

[Sans Souci]

That is the other one I see coming out on top on some lists. That's also one heck of a price! I may consider it if David can find it at our local Costco but it'll be at least another month and a half before I'll need it. I also worry about changing since I think I'm seeing results. I went into work today and pretty much everyone that saw me had something to say about my hair. Not that I looked like I was balding or anything, but I guess the fullness and rapid growth was really noticeable.

If it ain't broke, don't fix it!

You can look online to see your local warehouse's inventory. They might even have the brand you currently use. I get stuff shipped to me when I don't feel like dealing with the super long lines at my Costco.

 

[Sans Souci]

Yeah, living abroad, people always want to know what I think about stuff that's going on in the US. I would love to go to the US for vacation, but it's not safe right now. US citizens are sometimes being detained if they have things on their phone that immigration officers don't like, and I just saw that a few US citizens who live abroad are having their passport renewals denied, too. Mine is valid until 2029, so I shouldn't need to renew it yet, but I don't want them to go through my phone and read private conversations, either. There would be nothing dangerous or illegal, but very critical, and that seems to be what is flagging detainment. Not to mention my kids are not US citizens. Neither of them have a US passport, nor does my husband obviously, but they could also be detained for no reason or turned away at the border. It's not a risk any of us are willing to take for a vacation.

That's how I feel about my phone, there is no illegal activity, but I have a social media account that I use for social storming. I am involved with an organization that gets people to register to vote, so I post info about where to register and I also post details about upcoming bills that people might want to contact their congress critters about with links to help them find who their representatives are and contact info. So, I think stuff like that would be viewed as antagonistic. I could get a burner phone and leave my laptop at home. I'd rather not, though. We're staying at my MIL's which means we're sitting around a great deal, so I need to be able to entertain myself. lol

Are people being informed why their renewal was denied? Holy cow, I'd be closing my checkbook and not paying my federal taxes.

Ironically, it was my husband who was worried about going overseas and trying to return. But then he decided that his profile is low risk, but you never know. Then he said because we'd be going through pre clearance in Dublin, it might not be so bad. Wrong. That is considered an American border and they have American CBP agents working there. I've been reading about people being "aggressively questioned" and Americans returning home having their phones searched going through Dublin pre clearance.

 

[Songbird76]

That's how I feel about my phone, there is no illegal activity, but I have a social media account that I use for social storming. I am involved with an organization that gets people to register to vote, so I post info about where to register and I also post details about upcoming bills that people might want to contact their congress critters about with links to help them find who their representatives are and contact info. So, I think stuff like that would be viewed as antagonistic. I could get a burner phone and leave my laptop at home. I'd rather not, though. We're staying at my MIL's which means we're sitting around a great deal, so I need to be able to entertain myself. lol

Are people being informed why their renewal was denied? Holy cow, I'd be closing my checkbook and not paying my federal taxes.

Ironically, it was my husband who was worried about going overseas and trying to return. But then he decided that his profile is low risk, but you never know. Then he said because we'd be going through pre clearance in Dublin, it might not be so bad. Wrong. That is considered an American border and they have American CBP agents working there. I've been reading about people being "aggressively questioned" and Americans returning home having their phones searched going through Dublin pre clearance.

One of the stories I saw the woman said she was trying to renew her passport and her son's. She didn't say how old her son is, but they have lived in Senegal for 3 years, and when she went to renew the passports, they were denied with no reason given. When she asked why, she was told that they were not required to give a reason, and she could try again at a later date. So it wasn't that she was missing any documentation or anything.

Someone else, also female, said that she was told that she was missing documents, when she had followed the application instructions to the letter. She has not been informed about what documentation she was missing, but she speculated that she thinks it's because her birth certificate doesn't match the last name on her passport renewal application. But as it hadn't been returned to her yet, she couldn't be sure.

I don't plan to travel to the US until at least 2029 now. I was really wanting to celebrate my birthday at Disney in 2027, but I don't think that's realistic at this point, unless something big happens to change the trajectory. I'm now thinking of going to DLP sometime, maybe to celebrate E's college graduation in a couple of years before she starts on her masters and save my birthday trip to WDW for later. I had originally thought of 2026 for my 50th birthday, because I have always wanted to go to festival of the holidays and go when it's not so hot, and I thought 50 years was a great time to do it. But my husband isn't a Disney fan, and A gets overwhelmed and doesn't like to travel for more than a week or so, so he probably won't want to go. So again, it would probably be just E and me, which is fantastic...I love it, but she will only be 20. I want to be able to share my drinks with her, or at least let her smell them! We got in trouble because I let her smell my drink and she's not 21 at Wilderness Lodge. So then I decided to push it back to 2027, but with all the new developments, I don't think it's safe for us. We'll wait until 2029 or later.

 

[HouCuseChickie]

Weekly check in... I also think I got my weeks off last week. I think I posted 12 when it was actually like 20, because I think this is week 21. Maybe it's time to stop counting by weeks? Last week's weigh in (yes, still doing the weekly thing) was another good one. I was down another 5 pounds. I had someone ask if it's coming off too fast, since 1-2 pounds per week is usually the recommended. They're not wrong, but I've always found that the rate of loss will slow to this range as I get closer to my goals. Like it's still falling off more rapidly because I still have so much to lose. I think that's also around the time when I will invest in a scale with more advanced metrics. I also find that I'm feeling more comfortable living in my skin, so to speak, with it coming off like this. I know that sounds awful to say, but that confidence boost from not totally hating my reflection in the mirror is something.

Speaking of goals, I really feel like I need to try and wrap my head around the number on the scale not necessarily being the right goal and that maybe appearance and clothing really should be the target. I've done this before but trying to decide if I did it just because I hit a seemingly insurmountable plateau or if I was good where I was. The dr last time thought I was good, but part of me felt I should keep pushing. I don't know. We'll see how things start looking when I get around that range. While I am working on muscle growth for definition as well as boosted fat burning/metabolic rate, I'm not sure I want to get too bulky either. It's all just tough with dysmorphia issues, the people that have fed it in the past and just having a hard time seeing me as a whole.

Other than that...just trying to manage some of the business. We had a little break mid-week last week because Sam was out of town for several days, but as soon as she got home, it was all over the city for this and that. Her school team also got knocked out of the post-season, so now it's time to start up with practices for summer travel ball. Can't believe we're already back to that. On top of it, I go up on Thursday to pick Kendall up for dorm move out. That is also kind of shocking. I feel like I moved her in a few weeks ago! Now to figure out what to do for Mother's Day, since I'm trying to be good.

 

[Sans Souci]

One of the stories I saw the woman said she was trying to renew her passport and her son's. She didn't say how old her son is, but they have lived in Senegal for 3 years, and when she went to renew the passports, they were denied with no reason given. When she asked why, she was told that they were not required to give a reason, and she could try again at a later date. So it wasn't that she was missing any documentation or anything.

Someone else, also female, said that she was told that she was missing documents, when she had followed the application instructions to the letter. She has not been informed about what documentation she was missing, but she speculated that she thinks it's because her birth certificate doesn't match the last name on her passport renewal application. But as it hadn't been returned to her yet, she couldn't be sure.

I don't plan to travel to the US until at least 2029 now. I was really wanting to celebrate my birthday at Disney in 2027, but I don't think that's realistic at this point, unless something big happens to change the trajectory. I'm now thinking of going to DLP sometime, maybe to celebrate E's college graduation in a couple of years before she starts on her masters and save my birthday trip to WDW for later. I had originally thought of 2026 for my 50th birthday, because I have always wanted to go to festival of the holidays and go when it's not so hot, and I thought 50 years was a great time to do it. But my husband isn't a Disney fan, and A gets overwhelmed and doesn't like to travel for more than a week or so, so he probably won't want to go. So again, it would probably be just E and me, which is fantastic...I love it, but she will only be 20. I want to be able to share my drinks with her, or at least let her smell them! We got in trouble because I let her smell my drink and she's not 21 at Wilderness Lodge. So then I decided to push it back to 2027, but with all the new developments, I don't think it's safe for us. We'll wait until 2029 or later.

I think my MIL may have made her last trip to the US back in November. She is 80 and she doesn't want to risk being deported after landing. She's too old to do a back to back flight, worst case, she'd end up in a detention facility for the evening. I'm personally getting to the point where I am going to leave the US without my husband. I'd been asking since a year ago about a tentative plan to leave, but I was dismissively called "paranoid." Then in November, I said something about leaving. He keeps changing the goal posts to leave. We keep passing red line after red line and he's like, "No, not yet," Good luck selling a house now.

 

[Sans Souci]

Weekly check in... I also think I got my weeks off last week. I think I posted 12 when it was actually like 20, because I think this is week 21. Maybe it's time to stop counting by weeks? Last week's weigh in (yes, still doing the weekly thing) was another good one. I was down another 5 pounds. I had someone ask if it's coming off too fast, since 1-2 pounds per week is usually the recommended. They're not wrong, but I've always found that the rate of loss will slow to this range as I get closer to my goals. Like it's still falling off more rapidly because I still have so much to lose. I think that's also around the time when I will invest in a scale with more advanced metrics. I also find that I'm feeling more comfortable living in my skin, so to speak, with it coming off like this. I know that sounds awful to say, but that confidence boost from not totally hating my reflection in the mirror is something.

Speaking of goals, I really feel like I need to try and wrap my head around the number on the scale not necessarily being the right goal and that maybe appearance and clothing really should be the target. I've done this before but trying to decide if I did it just because I hit a seemingly insurmountable plateau or if I was good where I was. The dr last time thought I was good, but part of me felt I should keep pushing. I don't know. We'll see how things start looking when I get around that range. While I am working on muscle growth for definition as well as boosted fat burning/metabolic rate, I'm not sure I want to get too bulky either. It's all just tough with dysmorphia issues, the people that have fed it in the past and just having a hard time seeing me as a whole.

Other than that...just trying to manage some of the business. We had a little break mid-week last week because Sam was out of town for several days, but as soon as she got home, it was all over the city for this and that. Her school team also got knocked out of the post-season, so now it's time to start up with practices for summer travel ball. Can't believe we're already back to that. On top of it, I go up on Thursday to pick Kendall up for dorm move out. That is also kind of shocking. I feel like I moved her in a few weeks ago! Now to figure out what to do for Mother's Day, since I'm trying to be good.

I struggle with the scale too. It's frustrating to see the scale go up when I do a lot of weight lifting. But I take photos, too. This helps me a bit. I gained a small amount of weight last week, but I look like I lost it in my photos. I don't want to stop lifting weights, because muscle tissue is so good in so many different ways as we age.

I know I've said this before, but I lost 50 lbs doing WW. I started in Jan. 2017 and hit the top range my goal in May. I kept going a bit more and stopped. I did work my tail off to do it, but it's been 7 years this month since I hit goal and I have maintained my weight. I also think it came off quickly because I finally went on an anti-depressant and I wasn't eating carbs like I was running an ultra marathon anymore.

 

[Sans Souci]

Hello--

Checking in with a full body pyramid workout.

We went to Washington DC this weekend. The weather was great. Ate outdoors both nights. It was supposed to storm and rain all weekend, but it didn't rain until yesterday, so we got away with it. We walked so much, it was much a madhouse though. We usually go in the off-season, but there were so many tour busses up and down the National Mall.

We were walking near the reflecting pool towards the Lincoln Memorial and I swear I saw the older boy (Alex? Alec?) who was in the Shriner's Hospital commercials wheeling himself on the opposite side of the path. I told my husband I think I saw that boy from the Shriner's commercial. My husband asked me if I was sure. I said I wasn't 100% sure, because I saw him for a split second. But if it wasn't him, it was his doppelgänger. He was pushing his chair quickly and doing laps. I saw him coming towards us again and I said to my husband he's coming around again. So, my husband saw him and said "It could very well be him." I think it was. He's an adult now, so he looks a little different than when he was in the commercials.

 

[ajrwdwgirl]

I think my MIL may have made her last trip to the US back in November. She is 80 and she doesn't want to risk being deported after landing. She's too old to do a back to back flight, worst case, she'd end up in a detention facility for the evening. I'm personally getting to the point where I am going to leave the US without my husband. I'd been asking since a year ago about a tentative plan to leave, but I was dismissively called "paranoid." Then in November, I said something about leaving. He keeps changing the goal posts to leave. We keep passing red line after red line and he's like, "No, not yet," Good luck selling a house now.

That's so horrible that your MIL is worried about traveling here and being deported, especially when she would be traveling to visit family. Makes me sad for all that worry about traveling here.

 

[Songbird76]

I think my MIL may have made her last trip to the US back in November. She is 80 and she doesn't want to risk being deported after landing. She's too old to do a back to back flight, worst case, she'd end up in a detention facility for the evening. I'm personally getting to the point where I am going to leave the US without my husband. I'd been asking since a year ago about a tentative plan to leave, but I was dismissively called "paranoid." Then in November, I said something about leaving. He keeps changing the goal posts to leave. We keep passing red line after red line and he's like, "No, not yet," Good luck selling a house now.

Is he just scared of the change? I would have thought he'd be more willing to go back home to be closer to his mom, etc. Would it be hard for him to find a job back home? Or does he maybe not want to admit defeat because it might feel like a failure? It's not, but I know it can FEEL like it is. I held on so long at my previous job because I had made such a big deal about wanting a job where I could stay, and not be looking for another job in 6 months. And here I was, ready to start looking for something better again. It felt like a total failure. I still haven't found another job, either, which also feels like I'm failing. A big change is always a bit scary, and an International move and a new job is a pretty huge change.

 

[Sans Souci]

Is he just scared of the change? I would have thought he'd be more willing to go back home to be closer to his mom, etc. Would it be hard for him to find a job back home? Or does he maybe not want to admit defeat because it might feel like a failure? It's not, but I know it can FEEL like it is. I held on so long at my previous job because I had made such a big deal about wanting a job where I could stay, and not be looking for another job in 6 months. And here I was, ready to start looking for something better again. It felt like a total failure. I still haven't found another job, either, which also feels like I'm failing. A big change is always a bit scary, and an International move and a new job is a pretty huge change.

No. I think it's because he's put so much time and effort into building a life here, he doesn't want to leave it behind. He said he wants to stay and push back because he feels like he shouldn't be driven out. That's nice and all, but I am not loving the current "life unworthy of life" type of rhetoric surrounding autistic people. There's a lot of stuff making me very uneasy, but I will leave it at that.

 

[Sans Souci]

Hello-

Today I a circuit workout that was comprised on 8 reps of 8 exercises; 8 times through. This seemed easier than I remembered it being. I went out for a longer walk, too.

My son stays up late, so he lets Callie sleep until he's ready for bed. He said she hides under the table now when he wakes her up to leave because she doesn't want to go outside. I feel badly, but there is no guarantee she will sleep all night and not want to go out at, say, 3 AM. There is no way for her to alert us if she wants to leave in the middle of the night and TBH, I don't want to get up at 3 to let her out.

 

[HouCuseChickie]

I struggle with the scale too. It's frustrating to see the scale go up when I do a lot of weight lifting. But I take photos, too. This helps me a bit. I gained a small amount of weight last week, but I look like I lost it in my photos. I don't want to stop lifting weights, because muscle tissue is so good in so many different ways as we age.

I know I've said this before, but I lost 50 lbs doing WW. I started in Jan. 2017 and hit the top range my goal in May. I kept going a bit more and stopped. I did work my tail off to do it, but it's been 7 years this month since I hit goal and I have maintained my weight. I also think it came off quickly because I finally went on an anti-depressant and I wasn't eating carbs like I was running an ultra marathon anymore.

Picture taking was a method suggested by several fitness people I've been following. There are just so many things that can influence your weight on a daily basis. It's part of why they suggested either a daily weigh in or something far less frequent with other measures (like pictures, measuring tape measurements, etc.) in the mix. I don't know. I just know I felt good and was looking better (in my eyes) last night, just to wake up today feeling bloated and larger. The scale still moved, but very little.

I know some people who have had success with WW. At this point, I'm just counting calories and trying to make sure I'm getting a decent amount of protein and fiber. I'm trying to have better carbs but it's funny you bring up the ultra marathon part. Race training eating and trying to go back to normal afterwards was part of what did me in during two health/fitness reversals in recent years. So, I'm trying to stick to just me as my goal this time.