I would keep your chin up Tiki. Don't think down about yourself, because you aren't the problem.
Normal is only defined by the eye of the beholder. And even if there is a set definition of a 'normal' life, it's much better to be different than to simply blend into a crowd. It's their loss that they don't pull through. I know it might be hard to see the truth in that, but it is true.
It's usually the people that stand out or are away from the crowd that end up going places far beyond the norm, in a good way. Most artistic, imaginative thinkers like yourself should keep doing what you're doing and don't worry about anyone else.
It's not "bad chemistry." You just gotta stay positive and keep using your uniqueness to your advantage because...
Satoshi Tajiri - the creator of Pokémon - has autism.
People with an imagination and creative mind like yourself are who change the world. Not the normal people. All it takes is one simple idea (yes, inception reference
) or a really intriguing podcast that gets recognized by someone, and who knows what could happen! Then all those people who ditched you will all of a sudden want to talk to you. But you won't have to waste your time with them.
The future is bright if you just believe in yourself and what you hope to accomplish