I feel your loss. If your not a pet lover you can't explain to others how the loss of a longtime pet hits you. We just lost our silverhaired persian cat after 15 years. We bought "JAZZ" with some of our wedding money. The day after we got back from WDW, we went and got him. Our kids are 14 and 12, and they only knew life existing with him. Life lesson learned for them and us, but like your pain, it doesn't make any easier. I might take a photo of "JAZZ" and put him on leave a legacy. May be weird to some, but closure for us. Thanks for letting me talk on your thread. Pixie dust and wishes for you and your family.