- In the Parks
- No
Sigh...
Time is insanity. It doesn't feel like a month has passed without me catching up with reviews. I sometimes actually don't know what I'm doing, and I'm just so confused as to why I don't have all the reviews done yet. I did have some free time over this past month to get things done, but it feels way to late and strange right now. I've written 6 reviews and it feels like each took eons to make.
Since Tony doesn't want to be involved in this thread, I want to write a few things about my experience here with hosting. I was never ready to post, but what I did try to convey in my posts was that I would be trying my best to write the reviews. I did; HalfCartoon/HalfHuman did motivate me to begin writing them. On 9/11 I didn't post because of the day, and especially that meant I didn't finish writing them too. This was never meant to be something disrespectful to those who lost their lives on that day, and as an American, I would never want to do such a thing, not including a 9/11 joke meant and accepted to be funny at times. I am sorry if this was taken as an insult to the memory of Tonyell McDay and all the people who departed onwards that day and I am truly sorry for even writing something to imply so.
OSC wasn't meant to be a serious competition, it was a casual flick where you could stop by, write a few sentences, and go. What this means is that I don't feel like this is a disrespect to anyone in the game, as there was never a notion that putting tons of effort was required. Yes, I should have invited or requested someone to help along the way, but Prisms of Light's background systems just feel like they can't be touched by anyone else. And really, there was no need to. Time may have drifted away, and I don't know how many of the participants may have felt, but I believe that the true important competitiveness could be reserved for bigger competitions like Magic Journeys. The most important part in my opinion, of OSC, is the reviews, the part where people can grow and learn together, making even better projects and pitches. And that's my focus- I could have given it to someone else or made them short, but it takes away the point of OSC. If it means choosing from an instant result or waiting for a good and lengthy review, I know what I would choose.
But that doesn't mean I haven't learned anything from this. I truly regret the amount of long pauses I had in the game, but there's no going back now- there is only forward. My weakest strength is the will to write. Sometimes, like now, I can write everything I'm thinking immediately, but at other times, I just can't. My ability and my optimism just fade away. I want to take away from this and learn and grow as a host, and maybe in the future, I can do something that the entire forum can enjoy.
Reviews are still coming on the way. I don't want to make any promises or excuses or anymore, so I can really only say that they will be coming soon. I started this, I will end it with a good note. What I have in store later on, including reviews and a final note, is equal to this amount. I am dedicated to OSC, to you all, and I will honor my commitment.
Sorry, I'm younger and winding. Not that sorry