ok well i have an issue with the report and I have to wait to hear further word... so here goes;
so two nights ago I was up until like 4 a.m.... just couldn't sleep... I have my ups and my downs and its kinda like the reality of this all is hitting me in full; which is good because going forward I'll be better... but basically up until like 2 weeks ago, I still felt there was a good chance we'd end up together, but we're not gonna... oh well whatever not really part of the story... but thats why I was up late... mind racing...
so at like 3 a.m. I was like "maybe I should just pull an all-nighter... I have it in my, I absolutely have it in me... I could go to Foxwoods!!!" but then decided that'd be a bad idea cuz it's a 2 hour ride and I had to be at work in 5 hours... so 4 hours of driving in total... not worth it...
so yesterday at work i was like "ya know what, I'm gonna go to Foxwoods... it'll get me away from the city, get me away from my life for awhile... I'll go, just relax, play some cards, have some fun... forget about everything... clear my head."
So i go down there... takes me almost 2 hours to get there, so I'm at a table (I played poker) at about 7:00... five hands later and at 7:15 I lost the $120 i brought and was walking out of the casino... hahahahaha
I mean, that sounds so bad but like... I didn't care about the $120 at all... I just wanted to play tight for like an hour, and then be able to just relax ya know... I budgeted losing the money; I just wanted an hour or two hours killed somewhere fun... and I legitimately got screwed by some kid who had roughly $2000 in front of him... so my $120 wasn't enough to scare him away... hahahaha
so at 7:15 I'm back in my car on route for another 2 hour ride... hahahahaha
I drove 4 hours in total, drove from Boston to Connecticutt... for FIVE HANDS OF POKER...
hahahahahha... my life is totally miserable, but i think it's hilarious...
(that's such a better story in person, everyone I told was cracking up... online there's no spirit behind it... not as good... my bad)
