Chapter 4: Believing Is Seeing
Having left his uncle and cousin back in Frontierland, with its motif that looked like something out of one of the Western movies that were sometimes screened late at night, Harry didn't stop until he was in the middle of Fantasyland, near the center of the park. He finally paused to catch his breath next to a bright golden carousel. Looking closer, he saw it was named for Cinderella. Just like the castle that Harry had come to love in so short a time, towering up over his right shoulder.
Cinderella was a child's story, Harry thought with an odd pang of bitterness. Just like magic. No matter what this place tried to make you believe, the Dursleys were still just as horrible as ever. There was nothing special about this place after all, he concluded.
Harry shoved his hands in his pockets and walked past a group of children crowding around Mickey Mouse. Not really Mickey, Harry corrected himself. Just someone dressed up in a fur suit. Walt Disney's vision was one giant fake. In a way, Harry was sorry he had come here, because even though it was magnificent, it was going to take away that small, nagging hope he had always carried around in the back of his mind that things the Dursleys would never approve of might actually be real somewhere.
Alone in his melancholy, Harry was taken aback by the sudden burst of flame directly in front of him about five feet away. It was like the air had suddenly caught fire and just as quickly returned to normal. Another illusion by the Disney people, no doubt, Harry thought. That seemed to be the conclusion of the other people who had been close enough to see it, who had already gone back to their pre-determined paths, scurrying toward rides based on Snow White and Peter Pan.
Harry barely noticed the solitary red feather that floated to the ground in the wake of the sudden conflagration. And he certainly didn't notice the man who stepped over to pick it up — until he nearly walked into him, that is.
"Ah. Pardon me," the man said as he looked at Harry, straightening up from bending over to pick up the feather.
Harry glanced at the man. Just a janitor, dressed in a Disney uniform and carrying a push-broom. Harry glanced at the man's nametag: Brian D.
"No problem," Harry said as he made to walk on.
"Going anywhere in particular, Harry?" the man asked in a deep, melodic voice.
Harry stopped, naturally.
"How do you know..."
"What I know is not of particular importance, my boy. What matters far more is what you know," the man said as he lifted a hand in a regal fashion and locked his eyes on Harry's.
Harry looked at the man hard for the first time. There was something odd about him. Young and clean-shaven, with short brown hair, he didn't stand out at all in his appearance. Although Harry did notice that the flat blue cap he wore didn't seem to match his yellow uniform, which seemed too plain for him somehow. And then there were his eyes. The most piercing blue, and seemingly filled with wisdom most men would have long forgotten they possessed if they had ever gained it to begin with.
"I don't know what you mean," Harry said, feeling a bit stupid and intimidated in the presence of this strange man.
"You will, I trust," the man said in that deep voice which didn't seem to match his youthful appearance at all. "It so happens that my shift here is nearly at an end. If you would permit me to dispose of my broom, I would be happy to speak with you further."
Harry couldn't imagine what this man wanted, and yet somehow, he trusted him. He shrugged and nodded.
"Excellent," Brian said. "Wait here, please."
Brian disappeared into the crowd and returned in under a minute, no longer laden with his broom.
"I must confess I'm accustomed to rather a lighter model than that one," the man said, apparently referring to his push-broom.
"How did you get rid of it so fast?" Harry asked.
Brian walked on without answering, and Harry followed, eager to learn more about this man.
"Now Harry," Brian began, just as if he had known the boy for years. "You're here to learn about magic, as I understand, something you've been told all your life simply doesn't exist."
"Um...actually, I'm here because my aunt and uncle couldn't find someone to watch me back home," Harry said.
"Sometimes the reasons we do things are not the reasons we so easily accept, Harry," the man said, looking at him with those penetrating blue eyes.
Harry had no idea what this meant, so he just nodded. This man was very, very strange.
Brian stopped walking, and Harry did the same.
"Harry, if I told you there is magic being made all around us at this very moment, what would your response be?"
Harry hesitated before answering. He didn't want to say the wrong thing, but he had been asked a direct question.
"Well...I guess I'd say it's not real. There aren't any wizards here with magic wands or anything. It's just regular people pretending to be magical, and getting little kids to believe in it and all."
"And if those children — and those with the hearts of children, don't forget about them, Harry — if those people believe they are witnessing magic, is the magic not all the more real for that belief?"
"I...don't really know," Harry managed.
"Who told you only wizards with wands could create magic?" Brian said with a wry smile.
Harry had nothing to say. He was more confused than ever.
"Walk with me again, Harry, if you please," Brian said.
As Harry walked alongside his new companion, Brian stopped to point out different things.
At one point during their tour of Fantasyland, Harry and Brian stopped in front of the Snow White ride. A group of small kids were lined up, trying to get photos with Snow White and her friend Dopey.
"Who do you see there, Harry?" Brian asked.
"A girl pretending to be Snow White and someone in a dwarf suit," Harry said.
"And who do you think THEY see?" Brian said, extending a finger toward two small children who were talking to the characters.
"They see...Snow White and one of the dwarfs," Harry answered.
"And whose vision do you suppose is right?" Brian asked.
"I guess...mine is," Harry said honestly.
Brian continued to look at him complacently, as if expecting more.
"And, I guess...to them, theirs' is," he added, further adding in his mind that they were wrong.
"You have summed it up well, Harry," Brian said. "The way you envision things will always affect how you react to them — and perhaps more importantly, your perception of the world around you can either expand or diminish what you are capable of within it."
Harry didn't respond. This man seemed to be making a very big deal out of some Fantasyland characters.
They walked on, Brian continuing to point out small scenes and soliciting Harry's thoughts — families laughing and singing as they exited the boat ride at it's a small world, a mother soothing her hot, cranky twins with large ice cream sandwiches, a father racing his young daughter toward the carousel and losing on purpose. Real or not, the place certainly seemed imbued with an ability to make people happy, Harry thought.
A little later, Brian stopped Harry again. A girl with blonde pigtails in an pair of overalls, no more than 3, was pointing toward the sky. She was sobbing uncontrollably as her mother tried to console her. Harry looked up and saw one of those Mickey Mouse-shaped balloons drifting inexorably upward, never to be reclaimed.
"Let us observe," Brian said quietly.
Within a minute or two, one of the Disney employees had approached the young girl. It was a young man in his teens or early twenties, making no attempt to convince anyone he was Mickey Mouse. he handed the little girl three balloons to replace the one she had lost, and then pulled an ice cream bar shaped like Mickey out of his pocket to boot, unwrapping it and handing it to the girl.
Overwhelmed and with both hands full, the little girl could only look at the ice cream in her hands and say "Tank yoo" in response to her mother's coaxing. Her tears were gone.
Then she looked up and her eyes doubled in size. Just a few feet away, the girl saw Mickey Mouse standing and waving at her.
Harry looked in the same direction she was, and he also saw Mickey Mouse. He didn't correct himself.
As the girl broke free of her mother's grip and ran toward Mickey, balloons and ice cream in tow, Brian turned to Harry.
"What do you think we have just seen, Harry?" he asked.
"I think we just saw...magic." Harry liked the sound of the word, enjoyed how it felt in his mouth.
Brian smiled, a deep and sincere expression.
"My time is nearly gone, Harry. Could I interest you in a quick flight?" Brian asked, pointing toward the Peter Pan ride.
"Definitely," Harry said.
Harry and Brian waited in line for their turn to climb into a pirate ship and fly over London and then Neverland. There were mermaids, pirates, Indians, and Lost Boys, all having grand adventures just beneath them. Harry never once corrected himself in response to what he saw. He didn't need to. He was here, experiencing this. The exhilaration he felt in his stomach was real. The joy in his heart was real. The magic all around him was real, and no one could tell him otherwise.
After they disembarked, Brian turned to Harry.
"Magic exists in many forms, Harry, including some we have not witnessed here today," he said. "What they all have in common, however, is this — they will never do you any good unless you first believe in them. Belief is the key to all magic, Harry. You might say it's a very powerful form of magic itself."
Harry nodded and smiled. He still wasn't entirely sure what Brian was talking about, but he knew that what he was saying was the truth.
"I must be off now, Harry," Brian said, and as he turned to go, Harry felt a sinking despair in his stomach. He knew that he would have to find his relatives now, and no doubt pay dearly for the welt he had left on Dudley's arm.
Brian stopped, as if aware of what he was thinking, and added "Don't worry, Harry. By the time you make it back to your lodging, your cousin will be just fine, and your relatives will remember nothing of today's unpleasantness. For that matter, you will also have forgotten most of our encounter...save a few important details whose import will remain with you."
"Wait," Harry said as Brian turned away again. "You never told me why you did this, why you spent so much time showing me about magic and faith and all. I mean, why do you even care about what I think?"
Brian cleared his throat before answering.
"These are important lessons for anyone to absorb, Harry, but I believe that for you they are particularly critical. I believe that much of what awaits you depends on them. And — alas — I can say no more than that. Good-bye, Harry."
Brian turned a third time and walked away. Harry watched the back of him get smaller as he strode further into the crowd, and then, suddenly, he was gone — as if by magic, Harry thought, without a hint of hesitation.
Later, Harry would take the monorail back to his hotel room, where his relatives would look up in a way that suggested they had barely noted his absence and were disappointed he had found his way back. There would be no sign of any injury to Dudley.
Later still, he would climb into bed with Brian's strange yet comforting words ringing in his head. The next day, he would remember nothing of Brian himself, although the things he had internalized from the strange man would stay with him, his memories of that day playing back in his head as if he had discovered all the magnificent things about this place on his own. Months later, he would encounter those piercing blue eyes again, but they would be set in a much older face, and Harry would never make the connection with the strange janitor lost forever within the strange folds of memory.
Yet as he stood there in the fading sun, in the moments following Brian's disappearance, what really captivated Harry's mind was a sense of being a small part of something much bigger. Looking around, he realized there was still much more to see of Walt Disney's World — and of his own.