It seems not too long ago (November) when I posted here upset because I had broken up with my previous boyfriend. And here I am again in the same predicament. Only this time, the circumstances are much stranger and I feel so much worse. This guy is amazing. He made me so happy, feel so special. He gave me hope, somehow, that my life was going to be okay. He made me not want to be depressed. This boy really stuck a chord with me. I made him happy too. His friend said that he's never seen him happier. So what went wrong? Well, he's decided that he may be bisexual and that he needs to figure that out. I don't really care if he's bi or not, it makes no difference to me. But I don't know how he can't know. Maybe guys go into denial about it. When I realized I like girls (I'm bi as well), it was like, "duh!". I didn't have to go be intimate with a girl to realize that. So nothing went wrong in this relationship. We both care about each other a great deal. He was never mean to me, never controlling. We've gone to school together our whole lives and never talked. And us just randomly hooking up after all that time seemed like fate to me. And he says that once he figures this out, he wants to be with me again. But do you know what I'm worried about? I'm worried that it's going to take too long. And that once he does figure it out, he will realize he doesn't like girls at all. I have a gut feeling that he's gay. I hate that feeling. I bet he needs a friend now more than anything. And I want to be his friend. But it hurts me so much to just think about seeing him and not being able to kiss him or hold him or be his girlfriend. I am so heartbroken right now.
