Sorry Goofyernmost. I was indeed a bit of an *** myself. I hope you will read my explanation below, which doesn't excuse me from being an *** towards you. I hope you will read this one even if it's the last thing you ever want to read from me or respond to ever again.
I guess I felt too frustrated with myself, my body and my "friend" who made me take all initiative during our trip, took off on the train station to shop without me, because I couldn't move anymore. She then missed the train and blamed me for it because I should have called her when she started feeling sick somewhere along the shopping (like I could sense that when she was somewhere at Paris Nord?) She didn't call but I should have called her and I was the biggest ffing b*tch in the world for leaving her there.
Then I got home with a ruptured muscle, pyelonefritis and on top of it all pneumonia. Those are on top of other things such as having lost my job recently because of a sleeping disorder that is unpredictable and kept me bedridden for 7 months. This trip was one big gamble but supposed to be fun and a short break.
My "friend" though kept putting me down, clearly accused me of stealing money from her without saying so, and so on.
She didn't contact me until 2 days later where I had been worried sick over her. I knew she isn't the most stable person and could easily have done something to herself so when she didn't answer and then when she did told a completely different reason why she didn't want to sit down with me I kind of broke down together with the physical issues I just couldn't take it anymore when in this case you continued after my post how unintelligible it was, especially when that was one of the things she put me down with when speaking. She asked me if I was speech impaired or if everyone from my town talked as bad as I did.
(Other people have no issues understanding me so I know it was her issue but still, there were other things that made her appear to question if I was borderline retarded. Er, no, I may have a form of autism just like you do "friend" and you know that by now after 3 years of daily long Skype contact)
I do apologize. Now all I want to do is get rid of the stupid infections and pain.
And book another trip to Paris alone so I can actually enjoy myself instead of being put down all the time.
Again, it's not excuse of behaving like a **** head myself and I am sorry.
I get it if you can't be bothered anymore.