He's always battled with it, and it hasn't been a great secret for quite a few years...
) but she wasn't fond of her life on Earth, hated that she was still here, that hopefully soon "God will take her away from here so she doesn't have to deal with this". So one parent wishes I didn't exist, the other wishes she didn't. It does tend to put a damper on your outlook on life. Because of all this, I started doubting myself. When looking to move forward in a career for example I would think "Why would they want me, when someone else would be better"? It caused me to question everything about myself, even trying to answer someone's question was difficult in fear they would judge me for what I chose. But anyway, things are looking up and I've been able to solve a lot of problems. A big thanks goes out to everyone on these forums! All of you showed me being a fan of Disney is as normal as a slice of apple pie from Aunt Polly's (Whoops too soon!)
I thank you very much, it really does mean a lot to me. Those kind words do keep someone like me looking up. It's very true what @Nemo14 said, depression eats away at one's perceptions of self-worth. I can definitely attest to that. Of course it doesn't help that your hearing it from a family member everyday. When someone tells you that your immature and abnormal, there comes a day when you start to believe it. In my father's eyes I should be the quarterback of the football team, graduating with a master's degree, and becoming a commander in the Navy. This is the path he envisioned for me before I was even born.
So you can imagine his disappointment when he got a son who loved to take his new camera around Epcot Center to take pictures, spend the afternoon building small Lego sets by the fountain at Dixie Landings, and loved anything to do with animation. If being me was wrong, and I was the problem, than why was I here? Meanwhile I had a mother who loved me very much, to her I was everything (which most mothers feel the same
Finally I want to ask a favor to all the parents out there. Let your children be who they are. Let them enjoy childhood to the fullest, as long as their not hurting anyone. Because it's a rough world out there, and it's not looking any better in my opinion. Let them enjoy the freedom of discovering new things, and being a kid. It's their lives after all!
Anyway, I'm sorry to delve so far off-topic from Robin Williams, I just felt this was a good time to put that out there to the world, since you usually can't start a conversation with "So yeah, death sounds good"... If anyone hasn't seen this article yet (or someone's already posted it) I came across this story last night. It was a very interesting look at someone's encounter with Williams.
I hope you enjoy!
http://archive.floridatoday.com/usatoday/article/13948075?odyssey=mod_sectionstories
I thank you very much, it really does mean a lot to me. Those kind words do keep someone like me looking up. It's very true what @Nemo14 said, depression eats away at one's perceptions of self-worth. I can definitely attest to that. Of course it doesn't help that your hearing it from a family member everyday. When someone tells you that your immature and abnormal, there comes a day when you start to believe it. In my father's eyes I should be the quarterback of the football team, graduating with a master's degree, and becoming a commander in the Navy. This is the path he envisioned for me before I was even born.
So you can imagine his disappointment when he got a son who loved to take his new camera around Epcot Center to take pictures, spend the afternoon building small Lego sets by the fountain at Dixie Landings, and loved anything to do with animation. If being me was wrong, and I was the problem, than why was I here? Meanwhile I had a mother who loved me very much, to her I was everything (which most mothers feel the same
Finally I want to ask a favor to all the parents out there. Let your children be who they are. Let them enjoy childhood to the fullest, as long as their not hurting anyone. Because it's a rough world out there, and it's not looking any better in my opinion. Let them enjoy the freedom of discovering new things, and being a kid. It's their lives after all!
Anyway, I'm sorry to delve so far off-topic from Robin Williams, I just felt this was a good time to put that out there to the world, since you usually can't start a conversation with "So yeah, death sounds good"... If anyone hasn't seen this article yet (or someone's already posted it) I came across this story last night. It was a very interesting look at someone's encounter with Williams.
I hope you enjoy!
http://archive.floridatoday.com/usatoday/article/13948075?odyssey=mod_sectionstories
Thank you for your words of advise. Thankfully I have started taking steps with professionals, what really helped was being diagnosed with ADHD this year. I had no idea there was a reason why I had the emotional capacity of a thimble, why I did some of the things I do. My condition caused me to over-analyze things a lot, put thoughts into my head that were not true. All those question were answered when a specialist told me "Don't take this the wrong way, but I think you have ADHD". I didn't believe it at first, but he started asking me questions and my answer was always yes. This caused me to fix a lot of things about myself that I was doing wrong. You know the usual horrible college diet, not enough sleep, etc. Also it helps that I'm out of that soul sucking job. That's what I believe really sent me over the hill of hating life. I can see where Robin was coming from, dealing with the fact that he had to do certain things to keep a living. I've got a proper job now, something that I wanted to do in life, not what was required of me.
Lol, I know it's not quite the same talking to strangers, but seriously these forums have been more of an extended family than I've ever had. It's great to be part of an O'hana
I like you too...
I feel exactly the same way...many of his movies were big parts of my childhood. It was like a punch in the gut to read the news. So very sad.
Thanks for sharing that. I'm glad you were willing to open that and share with us. I definitely agree that it's a disorder, but not the kind you can just treat by pumping drugs into a person. From what I learned in that psychology class I took last semester (not that this makes me an expert of course, it was after all) antidepressants should be used sparingly and with a combination of therapy. They will stop working otherwise. I enjoyed reading that (well, as much as anyone enjoys reading about this topic) and thank you for sharing that.
Off topic, but Dole Whips are dairy free and inhalers are a pretty standard bronchitis treatment regardless of whether or not you have asthma. However, it is important to make sure you are getting proper treatment. Sorry to hear about your troubles, though.
Beautifully written my friend. It's too bad it has to be about such an awful subject that has caused so much pain to so many people. I, joke about my X, that's how I cope with it and I also know that she has no way of knowing what I am saying. I say it because I know just how devastating that disease can be. I haven't lived with the disease, but did spend 29 years of my life with someone suffering from it. I went through periods of understanding, then anger, back to understanding and eventually to just giving up. I knew that there was nothing I could do or say that would "fix" the situation.
