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    No tomorrow

    Not cold nor insensitive, it's comes from concern, and that's a good thing. You're right of course, doing things without her or enjoying new things will happen, it's inevitable. Our marriage had gone through many transitions, each had strengthened our bond, our absolute love for one another. I...
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    Thank you. Indeed, grieving is a personal journey. My 20 year old daughter lost her mom, I don't know what that feels like, my mother in law lost a daughter, I don't what that feels like it what my wife's sister is going through. Only I know how I feel, how I'll cope, what I'm comfortable with...
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    Then it is I who owes you gratitude. Heeding my "advice" is enough, it was and is important for me to share that. If I've moved someone, just one person, to remind the people in their lives what they mean to them, then I've done something. Talking to people who have no "connection" with my wife...
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    Thank you, you're absolutely right. Her passing won't define me by somehow forcing me to shut out the world and die. I feel like it at times, but I'm not quite wired that way. I'd rather her LIFE remain a positive influence on me, reminding me that life is, indeed, worth living. My daughter...
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    Thanks, all of you. I've not exactly been able to get back here. Things are in that stage where, now that the funeral is over, family and friends have gone back to their lives (as they should), and I'm left with this vast landscape of my new reality. You guys are great, you each are treasures...
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    Thank you. You touched me with the advice about sleeping with an item with her scent. She had a shirt she'd taken off earlier on the day she was taken to the ER, and it's on her pillow. I can still smell her hair and it's been a bitter sweet reminder of her. Your words, to me, someone who's...
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    No tomorrow

    Thank you so much, and indeed I'm desperately clinging to every moment of our life together. And yes, those years and those times will never leave me and I'll see her every time I close my eyes. Thank you very much, it means the world
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    No tomorrow

    Thank you, that sentiment means so much to me, especially now, I'm having a very hard time, especially with those sort of feelings, and that means so much.
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    I don't have the words to describe the entirety of yesterday. Her funeral was the hardest thing I've ever been through, at the same time I was relieved this portion of closure is done and I hate myself for it. My wife suffered deeply in her later years, and some of our dear friends from those...
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    Memory Maker

    Don't know about the topic really, but I'd just like to say that if given the opportunity, take a million photos if you can. One day, and you more than likely won't know which day, they will be priceless. I was a photo making machine while at soccer games and Disney and other vacations and...
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    Thank you, you are speaking nothing but truth about the eating and sleeping. I've often associated food or eating with others as a good thing, something "pleasurable", and I find joy in very little now. I make myself eat, so I don't get sick or collapse, but it's an act of pure necessity now...
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    No tomorrow

    Thank you, that's such a kind thing, I appreciate that offer so much, honestly, things like that remind us that even a total stranger has the capacity to help a fellow human being. Thank you
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    No tomorrow

    Thank you so much, conveying to others what they mean to you is so important. I can't stop thinking of all the things I want to say. I can't stop thinking of the regrets, the missed opportunities, the moments I could've been a little more patient or less hardheaded. I know she loved me, and she...
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    No tomorrow

    You're kind to say these things, and we appreciate your thoughts. These emotions are so incredibly unreal for me, now I can't believe my heart will ever be whole again. It's a depth of sorrow I didn't think was actually possible. The crying is so unpredictable, I can't stop thinking about her...
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    Thank you so much, it means a great deal, reaching to a total stranger is such a kind thing, thank you.
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    Thank you, your thoughts about depression hit very close to home. My wife was cursed with a very deep depression, along with a multitude of physical, emotional, and psychological "demons". I don't speak of these things, I don't discuss the intimate details of her suffering, but I completely...
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    No tomorrow

    Thank you all so much. Disney was/is an important part of our lives, knowing that this great outpouring of kindness from this Disney community would mean so, so much to her. And your thoughts, prayers, wishes and words are worth more than you all know. From the absolute bottom of my Heart, my...
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    No tomorrow

    Thank you guys so very much. Hearing words from "strangers" about my loss is so kind, it means so much. We bury her tomorrow and saying goodbye has such a different meaning now. Bless you guy guys, bless your families and keep one another safe.
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    No tomorrow

    Hello my many Disney friends, both old and new, because regardless if I know you, I'm choosing to except you as friends. This is a simple thing I'm doing, it's therapeutic for me, it's just a coping need I guess. I have no social media presence other than here, so this is where I'll talk. I...
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    A Terror-rific Spirited 13th (ToT fans have lots to fear)...

    Hate to contribute to even more thread drift, but I think you've hit the nail on the head. This is a "Hollywood" issue, not just a Disney habit. I would imagine that at one time studios actually trusted writers to create good, solid stories. I suppose with so much money on the line it's rather...
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